EDWARDCHAN

i love him, i love my sweet boy more than words can describe, i don’t care if i’m young and dumb and just stuck in the honeymoon phase (even though it’s been more than 6 months) i can’t think of him in any other way than love, i can’t find any bone in my body that hates him i just can’t, i may be mean and nihilistic, but not with him, never with him, i don’t have much hope for the world, but i have all the hope for us cause i can see us in 15 years living together clear as day, clearer than some actual memories i have, i can see us doing laundry together, i can see myself waking up next to his adorable face every morning, i can see myself taking care of his hair every night before bed, i can see us with kids i can see us with just pets, i can see us just by ourselves wrinkly and old looking back on everything we’ve done together, all the things we’ve seen all the memories we’ve made, he makes me softer than i thought i could ever be with anyone, he showed me love and care, he showed me true companionship, he showed me that i’m not as awful as i think i am, and i wish every single day i could do the same for him, i wish i could make him see how absolutely perfect he is, i constantly wish he saw himself how i see him, he could leave and years later i’d still crave his presence even for a moment, i can’t imagine my life without him, no matter what we are or what we end up being, there’s nothing about him that i could ever hate, my arms will always be wide open hands always waiting to connect to his regardless of anything, i’ll always be someone he can fall back on to no matter what, ill always be someone that’ll be there for him, i love him so much he doesn’t need to love me back, my love is like gravity i may be unstable myself but my love and adoration for him isn’t, he’ll always be someone i have time for no matter what, i know this is long but i don’t care, there’s no way i could adequately show how much i truly love him it’ll always be something beyond words or actions, but still i’ll adore his pretty face forever and always