read The Gentrification of the Mind

get so close to your friends that at least 10 people ask if you’re in a relationship

oh it’s way closer to 3 yrs than i realised i think. idk if i could find the date. i dont know if it’s relevant. it’s probably just me making a connection.

it isn’t quite what happened almost exactly 3 years ago but it’s the closest thing i think ive experienced. i dont think there’s a Big Plan involved which makes it different (and maybe less severe/crazy) but at the same time there not being a big plan makes the less crazy version feel more plausible and real. it’s fucking almost exactly 3 years ago (not to the date - i dont actually know what date it was though). i dont want it to turn into that again. but im reacting the exact same way.

im gonna go home and watch the last two episodes of severance i havent seen because ive been almost non stop hanging out for over a week

it felt so good to start to believe i actually have these friends and i can connect with them and opening my mouth actually makes the connections deeper and the fear smaller. and it feels so bad to crash down from that

maybe i overdid it these last few days or i shouldve slept more than 5 hours last night because it’s getting real hard not to think my friends found me insufferable and horrible tonight

i actually think my friends are my friends do you understand how big this is for me

found out today that my professor nearly had an artwork in an episode of succession