as I pass my time

Good luck to y'all taking the bar today! Kill it, fucking mash it.

Clean & Serene since June 19, 2016, earned my 30 days this weekend. It was not an easy battle. I’ve struggled with addiction for years and have been trying to get clean seriously since October 2015, and I am now finally getting 30 days of continuous clean time. If you’ve been there, I need not say much - we know a trip, slip could go bad; if not, I appreciate the support, love, and curiosity. If you know someone who’s struggling, talk to em, if you’re struggling you’re not alone. Hit a meeting, google one, it works homie

something I made in celebration/inspiration:

title: How Many Takes?

https://soundcloud.com/pumatraxx/how-many-takes-chum-flow-unmastered

lyrics:

The Higher Power that I have now I like to call him Hi-p

He keeps me Happy, He hypes me, walks beside me 

Keeps the Dark behind me

Do not be alarmed! Nothing but dark lyrics with a dark beat. (originally called it “Suicide Note” but facebook kept deleting, waahh we dont wanna host suicide notes, fuck I hate facebook. But its fucking necessity to be social, enough rambling) I swear I'll get to studying after this

This beat: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=VD9SiUuoQRc

My lyrics: This is the night where I write and you finally get my story right, 

understand all that I've had to fight, 

from a grandma who beat me when I didn't greet her right, 

or that babysitter who made me eat her out every night, 

now your faces are all white with disgust and fright, 

this is what I have shouldered all my life, 

so don't, come asking if I'm all right or hand me a Kleenex to wipe

I'd rather you hand me a crack pipe, yeah I'm that type  

five weeks of sobriety fuck it I'd rather get high, reset my clean time  

take flight because I swear tonight is my last night

this is my notice of suicide

this flow is just for the meantime I know I said it before but I mean it this time, I'm killing somebody but it ain't no homicide, fuckers, I'm out, don’t make me say it twice

this is my notice of suicide

27 pills, & I ain't telling of what, why? so some am-bigity-bam-bulance can try to pump & re-giggity-balance my insides. I already said I'm killing us - diggity dr. Jekyll, myself & Mr. Hyde

Biggity Bye bye

just to cap it off thrice,

https://soundcloud.com/pumatraxx/1-train-flow

[generic rap intro chatter]

Throw rocks @ me you can even try to box wit me

charge a ram at me like a ship that missed the dock, homie

but let’s get it right, starboard or port, this flow is to tight to be stopped

my big bobble head is too mighty to be topped

Take a trip on tha balls & I’ll see you next cock, you are a fucking mock-

ery, cuz really its silly, how when I’m clean shaven & wearing clean socks

every fucking betch double turns her neck so fucking fast it fucking crocks

But look its time to invest in my stock, the time is ticking, the click is clocking

Right now I’m nameles, fuck the goal to be famous I’d rather live to be ageless

But don’t mistake this shameless sillyness as weakness cuz pussy bitch i WILL leave you faceless

Dr. Lecter, Hannibal is the fucking animal I keep caged inside, so I’m half humanimal, half cannibal, half indestructible with my 30 cans of redbull

Now my sick mind is full of all the sick crimes I could pull

Make a hater sour in the face, drink a can of mace and spit it just to put his ass back in fucking place, and i’ll top the shit off with a lil’ lime

Yea I ain’t got no more shit to rhyme, all I got is time and this shit don’t make no sense its just a line to rhyme so I don’t fucking lose my mind.

...Again.

***These lyrics were edited after I hand wrote them, really more for the next time I record, but I’m sure you can still use it to figure out what I’m saying.