june ♡

I wanted to draw her as a Goddess like Madoka (I will redesign her to my concept of deity too xD) and i really like the thought of her being a Goddess of Hunger because of her backstory and all of that.

Sayaka isn't my favorite character. But she is strong and selfless. I feel like she has been going to her doom since the very beginning. Her wish was given to someone who won't ever love her back. So her end wasn't a surprise bit it still was so tragic and beautiful. She deserves to be a Goddess. She deserves to be a patron of Unloved as she herself fought with her desperation. At least now she won't be ever alone again. She didn't die alone, so her life would be filled with love.

Mami Tomoe is my least favourite Magical Girl. Her way of being, her actions... but I really like her story, she is very human. She is the only one who went with a wish that was only for her which is understandable. She was dying, of course she would choose to live in that moment. She is also very lonely. I wanted to give her this title at the beginning. The title of Goddess of Loneliness. But, in my opinion, Ignorance suits her more. I thought about it in a bad way at first because her ignorance made some tragic repercussions for all of them. But it is a way to live for her. She used her wish to live, she used her wish for herself and she was going to pay for it being a Magical Girl. She preferred to stay in her bubble, preferred not to think more about what everything means, what they really are. She just didn't react well because of all of that. She lost her friends. She lost her head. I think her would learn something from it and she would become the Goddes for those who Ignored and bring them Wisdom.

Now, why Loneliness... I had a little dilemma here. I had tho ideas for her patronage - this and Hopeless. In the end, I decided to go with Loneliness as I think it is more true to her. I do believe she felt hopeless (she tried to save her friend again and again and again and she had to feel hopeless not once in this whole ordeal). But she was still going forward. That's where loneliness comes to play. No matter how much she was determined... I just know she was so lonely. She is just a kid, a teenager that had a lot of a lot on her plate. Going through loops for eternity. Alone. Nobody with her, nobody remembering and in the end even not knowing her. It would be so lonely to be among people that one were your friends and now they think you are a villain, that they don't know you were their friend. And what hurts the most? That your best friend doesn't know. And she is the reason you are doing this. You are doing this for her and she doesn't know. So she became the Goddess of Loneliness for everyone alone in their world.