Meet me on the Road to Recovery.

Happy disability pride month to everyone with ptsd, happy disability pride month to everyone with complex ptsd, happy disability pride month to everyone who questions if their problems are big enough to count as a disability, happy disability pride month to anyone who questions if their problems count as a physical or mental disability, happy pride month to everyone who has a disability that causes people to stare, and to those whose disabilities are hidden, happy disability pride month to everyone who deals with any kind of disability physical or mental, you’re all badass and I want you to remember that this month okay

identifying a maladaptive coping mechanism is so bitter sweet like that’s great now i know what i need to stop doing. but that’s literally my something

Remember that even good changes can make us feel depressed, because, as creatures of habit, we're resistant to change. That doesn't mean that it wasn't the right choice.

i hope you heal

The reason the work you’ve done on how you feel doesn’t seem like it’s working is because you need to do it until it works. It’s never been “this strategy will pull you up” it’s always been “here’s something you can do that will END with you getting out of that hole” the climbing still hurts and the being underground still hurts but that doesn’t mean it’s not working

the truth is you aren’t the same person you were 2 or 3 years ago. you’ve grown an unbelievable amount since then. you are not the same scared person you were then. through the challenges you have faced along the way you have been molded into someone new, someone strong. keep going.

please keep in mind that learning is always a process. learning to draw, dance, play an instrument, but also learning to say no, learning to start conversations, learning to be more comfortable in your own skin. it’s great setting goals for yourself, as long as you allow yourself to get there gradually instead of immediately wanting to be the best at it (and setting unrealistic standards for yourself because of it). change is rarely a single moment during which everything suddenly shifts, but rather a period of time in which you learn and adjust and improve. you’ll get there, but you must give yourself time to do so.

you are so much more than that failed test. that interview gone wrong, your relapse, the missed opportunities, the words you wish you could take back. you are not your mistakes. you're a person who's trying. there are so many opportunities to make things right. you'll get there, even if it takes a few more tries.

reminder that just because a decision hurts doesn’t mean it was the wrong decision. cutting ties isn’t necessarily easy but it can be an important step to take.

your existence isn’t just taking up space. you don’t just exist here, you inhabit space that was meant for you wherever you go. a spot for your shoes, a curve in your mattress where you get comfortable, a wardrobe with your scent, half-empty soap bottles, journals filled with your handwriting, a seat in class or place at work or both. this world already has been adjusted to you and you belong here, every part of you does. even if you’d pack up your belongings and move across the world, it wouldn’t be nothing. it would only highlight the fact that you are part of what makes an environment a life, and your absence carries weight even if you don’t think so.

there are good things left. there are good things coming. there are good things waiting for you. whoever you are, wherever you are, however you are, it can and it will get better.