This blog is still pretty much inactive, but I’ve discovered some shocking information and thought I’d share the whole story under the cut. If you follow me, you can ignore this. It’s the people who don’t technically follow me who will end up reading it, I’m sure. TLDR: I’m flattered, but you can quit me. I’ve certainly moved on from you.
About a year and a half ago, I started getting absolutely insane amounts of hate anon/temp account messages from some psycho ex of some other psycho I barely even knew. Far more annoying than anything, and tumblr staff being useless, I decided to try and block the IP myself. Maybe re-route it so when they try to go to my blog, they get sent to a self help website instead. So, I put a hidden IP tracker in my blog layout. This let me see all visiting IPs time of visit, location of internet access, OS, and host name/page/referrer (meaning I could even see searched tags). All I had to do was line up the times of the messages sent with the times of visits, and bam. Could label the annoying IP, and reroute it elsewhere. But it did take a week or two to identify the pest, because to my surprise and slight horror, I had multiple repeat visitors. My scare of having multiple silent stalkers was dulled down to confusion when I noticed the location and OS of these repeats were the same cities lived in and OS used by some people I used to know. People who (several months before I put in the tracker) led me to believe I was their friend for many years, then sort of just stopped communication all together without a word. But they did so because they were Superior and more Mature than myself, so surely this was an odd coincidence. Surely such Adults would not cut someone from their lives and then go on checking that unworthy someones blog months after the fact. Surely. To help weed out the psycho anon, I labeled the oddly coincidental repeats with who they had a funny geographical/OS match to. Soon I was able to see the patterns and psycho anon was no longer an issue. With that annoyance gone, I forgot about the tracker and moved on with my life. Fast forward to a month or two ago, before I made my new blog, I get a message from ol’ psycho anon. So, I go back to the tracker, label their new IP and...wow. Those surely coincidental IPs I labeled from so long ago were still visiting. Oddly enough, searching my blog for tags of the very usernames of the people I half-expected them to be! And our old friendship tags. Their IRL names. The names of conventions they frequent. Going back as far at 8 pages in to my blog, 1-3 times a month. As if hoping I was still trying to communicate with them like the desperate, dumb baby they thought I was. Now back when I got friendship-dumped without any explanation, I was checking their blogs as well, of course. I mean who wouldn’t? I was heart broken and confused and hated myself for not knowing what I did wrong, I wanted to find answers. But I stopped after a month or two. Because it was clear they wanted nothing to do with me. I moved on. And mature, elite people such as themselves would have moved on, too. So I raised my eyebrows at these odd completely coincidental IPs, took care of psycho anon again, and carried on. Today I was organizing my bookmarks. I saw the tracker, now irrelevant since I have a new blog, and went to delete the account. And lo and behold...
Are you that self-absorbed? That you’re searching for any snippet of information about yourself on the blog of someone you cold cut out of your life nearly two years ago? Are you seeing how sick this looks? Can you imagine how much sicker a year and a half of these visits compiled together looks? Now you can come up with some explanation as to how this isn’t unhealthy of you at all, and it is very Immature and Toxic of me to make this post. Or you can get a grip, accept your faults, and move on. Your choice doesn’t matter to me because you haven’t mattered to me in a long time. Either way, here’s that juicy call-out post or whatever it is you were hoping to find that mentions you.
