My Raw, Shit Ass Life & Intrusive Thoughts

@psychoticepisode666

Hi, my name is Najaeli, & this is my new page. I've had my last page since 2009, so this hurts me. I literally can't even remember my "about me" section. I post very raw content about my life, including tough moments, random things going on, & just reminiscing. I held nothing back. I post unedited screenshots, real names, & whatever is on my sick mind & never look back. Alot of the posts were too triggering to want to relive it. I don't care to mention my age. Just know that I'm close to 40. I'm a Scorpio. I post risque content, depressing, sexual thoughts & my lifestyle-- just any and everything to get the "mental vomit" out. I'm very mentally ill, & diagnosed with Schizophrenia, Borderline Personality Disorder, PTSD, Severe depression, Severe anxiety, schizo-affective disorder, Postpartum Psychosis, bipolar disorder with psychotic features, ADD, & Substance Abuse Disorder. Shit sux. I've gone to school for English, Psychology, & Medical Administration Assisting. I'm a former top drummer within the Mississippi and surrounding areas. I'm an addict. I speak about drugs. I'm a very sexual being & extremely emotional. I'm an artist & also enjoy doing self photography, poetry & stories, & won many competitions for every talent that I have. I consider my photos art. I've been featured in many newspapers, for my drawings, writing, & my music. Percussion is my forte. I always feel shitty about my life. I sometimes turned my poetry into songs. I'm pan. i have 2 sons. I'm an alternative girl of color. I'm also a juggalette. I practice witchcraft. I was one of the first people to start "Alternative Girls of Color" vids on YouTube, back in the day. I'm currently in a 9 year relationship with a "straight" guy, but I prefer bi/pan guys & transwomen the MOST, but I do love all genders💜 My oldest son's abusive dad is pan. I have *daddy issues* I post random things from the top of my mind & never look back. K, bye, I think Oh! & I have lots of cats lol

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I wanna get out the fucking house.

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I be wanting to say "My son got more hair than y'all's daughters" so badly 😅😅😅. He does, hell lol. Smh

This vid is ugly lol

These are my new glasses. For once, I've taken my contacts out, to wear some... I NEVER do that, until my contacts are split, & I have no choice. I like these... I think 😅

The naked titty in the dark is me rn...😅😅

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Just laying in squirt juice, while he's sleeping with my finger in his booty crack 😭😭

If I can't watch you pee, just stop fucking me in my ass, bc it's unfair. Fuck it all.

😅😅😅 idfk

I've laid in the shower twice... I thank God that just now, I was finally able to get them. I've been so fucked all day long. Soooo, so sick!!! So much pain! So much everything. They're in 3 separate bottles. 30 in each bottle, I guess. Seeing how restless I've been about everything, all day long, they filled it quicker than ever, for me to not physically be there. They all were aware that I'm withdrawing, though, so I guess they took that into consideration. I really appreciate it... I'm just stuck with the tabs/pills & not the strips anymore. This manufacturer is more decent. It's the one before that last good one that I had with the other place I was going to. But yeah... My life's so fucking stupid. Now, since I've gone too long without it & got so deep into withdrawals, it hasn't stabilized yet 😞😞😞.

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I'm starting to have withdrawals, & I'm terrified. There's an insurance issue, & I've been going back & forth & back, between my Dr's office, the insurance company, & the pharmacy. Literally all day long. I'm just now having up with the insurance company for the thousandth time... I keep promising my Dr's office that it's my last call, & it ends up not being the last call 😭😭. I'm so fucking scared!!! 😭😭

I bet I won't fuck with lettuce anytime soon anymore 😭😭😭. The first time, I was figuring I was throwing up from something else, but THIS time, it had me throwing up from both ends, so naw... I'ma stop chancing myself with the shit 🥺. (Sooo icky, ik). I need to throw the shit away, but I don't waste food 😅😅. Seriously though, i need to take the shit out the fridge 😟😟. 😭

Ha... Ha... They're outta Suboxone for today 🥲🙃. I just had my appointment. It's always SOMETHING. At least I can get my nien today, hell.

I don't be knowing how to feel about being "disregarded", whenever I'm seen at gatherings with the family, after being recorded on home surveillance with this boy, & his fiance heard us, ALONG WITH THE ENTIRE FAMILY & HOUSEHOLD, & had her ppl steal his phone & broke them up 😟. After making it up to me with pay, after accusing me & harassing me, thinking I stole the mf, I guess killed it all. Hell, niggas need to stop cheating smh. Tf

WEAR YOUR FUCKING SEATBELT BITCH!!!!!!!

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Well, I guess Robert is back being cool with one of his old friends that used to eat my cat & make me squirt all over their truck windows with their fingers. I forgot how I even ended up doing that while I was preg. Anyway, I'm glad that things have changed, bc it was sholl ruined bc of his attraction to me 😞😓. I really hate how things happened. He doesn't try to contact me anymore, which makes me feel even better about it...

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