A very silly dumpster fire

"Why would you ship them? They don't even like each other!!" You would've never survived the rise of the brave tangled frozen dragons. I have created and had ships promoted to me from separate fandoms that make so little sense, it's honestly just funny. Two characters could stand kind of near each other, and I will still draw art of them making out sloppy style, I do NOT give a fuck. They interacted, which is MORE THAN ENOUGH FOR ME; KING OF QUEER BAIT.

im getting hotter but not in the way that im losing weight but in the way that im finally confident in myself and not relying of external validation or disorders to make me feel in control of my life

i may be a hater till the day my ashes are eaten by a worm and shat out as dirt but i think thats fine bc my bestiepoos will hate everyone whos ever wronged me 50000% more than i ever could, every ex, every bad friend, every agitating person will be getting hated on and threatened by a bunch of teenage girls that i managed to trauma bond with so hard that i've fulfilled the pet twink prophecy

call me 蓝忘机 thw way i eb waking up at 5 am

this post doesnt really serve any other purpose other than being able to externalise my emtions but i think in a sense ive been greiving my whole life because maybe that will make it less awful when he does die but i know it will just be worse and i will lose someone ive grown to call my sister and ill lose the cats and freddy and my parents will never be the same and i dont even know how ill conetinue to live without him and i dont know when it will happen but hes been beating the prognosises since he was just a little baby and you cant just keep living off luck im just so scared i love him so much even though hes never said a word to me i love him i cant do this why would god do this to me why send me down here to face the melancholy when i couldve stayed stardust and blood in my mothers body and i know somewhere in my bones that it wont be the last tie that i wil lcontinue to watch everyone i love die and that scares me how wil i do it alone how will i explain to my future kids that no ones left that now im an only child but i grew up with a brother who never held me and i who i never truly held, how will i explain the distance in my mothers eyes and my fathers persistent but tired love how will i point and photos and explain the relationship between me and a woman nine years my senior how will i live how will i love people normally how will i ever see past this point i love him so much i cant live without him and ive been crying over this my wholel ife whats 20 more minutes he already owes me so many tears and i owe him so much blood and a pair of lungs and my heart and my legs that can walk and my arms that can lift and my feet that support me and my brain throat mouth that let me argue with my parents and compliment friends he will never have and my eyes that point in the same direction and see the beauties of life and fully comprehend them in a way i can never understand him i love my brother i miss him in an unbearably painful way that rips up my chest and chogs my lungs and makes my head hurt but i cannot feel it because ive spent 16 years watching him from hospital bedsides and ive never had a conversation with him and we've never hugged and i miss him so much because theres nothing to miss but the reality where its not like this and that one isnt great either, am i going to hace to watch my parents die as well after it happens. i hope i get to say goodbye, i lhopeits at home and hes not hooked up to the ventilator that my mother and i have held each other and shook like flowers in a feild together that ive sat beside why my fathers eyes go glassy and he swears and hides his face and i silently sit there, complacent in the cruelty of life because i cant do anything at all. i was born mourning and i will die the same.