Parapsychology and Psi Phenomenon

The first image is what I have for my spirit board so far.

I want to add either two pomegranates or a chai and a pomegranate but I can’t choose which!

TW/CW DEAD/DISMEMBERED ANIMAL

I sent this video to my boss on Friday. This is the side yard where I work.

She wasn’t able to do anything about it over the weekend because she was out of town.

Today the fur and bones are gone but the guts are still there 😬

I’m pretty confident someone snuck into our yard and then killed and dismembered this animal (I think it was a rat or a squirrel but I don’t know because the head was missing).

I’m reading up on the clair-senses (clairvoyance, clairaudience etc). There are several that I didn’t know about and I’m going to use this platform to flesh them out for how they might apply to me personally.

This one - clair-sentience - majorly stands out to me. All my life I’ve had this happen and didn’t know what to call it.

My experience of it is not that I have the literal physical sensation of another person. When I was young, if I saw a person or an animal get hurt I would get these pangs on the backs of my knees and the insides of my elbows. It felt like the sensation you get when you eat something really sour and that spot behind your ears gets all ‘twangy’. It felt like that in my arms and legs. Like an immediate neurological response to seeing another sentient thing hurting.

It used to happen so often when I was little. As I grew up I kind of grew out of it. It still happens sometimes, a few weeks ago I saw a house-less person with either an injury or disease that made it hard to walk trying to make their way down the road - it hit me then.

I don’t know if I’m supposed to do anything when this experience hits me. Am I ‘supposed’ to help? That makes me feel afraid for some reason. I live in a bad neighborhood so putting myself out there to help that person I saw a few weeks ago could’ve put me at risk. But what if that’s why I feel these things?

I want to just trust that “I feel this and helping is good, so I should go help”. But I’m afraid for myself - it’s scary to want to trust that feeling. I struggle to trust my instincts, I struggle to trust ‘the universe’ - by nature I’m hyper-vigilant in ensuring my personal safety so to say that I’m going to go all-in and trust this feeling and help feels reckless.

But I also feel like I am turning my back on something by not trusting it. So I feel stuck.

I also wonder how I could develop this natural ability more. I wonder if I truly want to. I feel stuck about this too.

On the one hand, I think that I could learn to trust the universe and myself more by committing to developing psychically and I really want to find a way to build that trust. I think it will enrich my life. But, on the other hand I worry that I’m biting off more than I can chew or I don’t really know what I’m opening the door to.

I’m going to be updating my name soon. The word ‘skeptic’ has become so tarnished that it doesn’t feel like it reflects the content or attitude of this blog.

Objectively speaking, yes, you should be skeptical of everything. Everything you say you believe in should stand up to questioning even if the answers are unclear or “I don’t know”.

I still believe that.

But calling yourself a ‘skeptic’ has become synonymous with pig-headed arrogance and conjures up images of a devotion to denying the existence of phenomenon even in the face of evidence for it.

I’m not about that.

So I’m going to play around with a couple names. I might go through a few changes before I settle on one.

If you’re reading this after the update - this blog was formerly para-skeptic.

The Millennial Medium Podcast

Y’ALL

This podcast is rad.

Two friends. One is a medium. And their episodes are exploring psi phenomenon, mediumship, astrology, reincarnation, “all things wooey” as they say.

I crave these kinds of conversations in my day to day life and the people I’m around day to day are not into it so this has been really awesome to listen to and feel like I’m not alone in this!

I shared that post with information about accessible research on consciousness because I thought it was right to do so. Yesterday I felt profoundly changed and connected to myself as a result of finishing the podcast - the information on the podcast honestly wasn’t new to me but for some reason, hearing it all in the condensed format led to me turning a corner with regards to how I relate to myself and the physical world.

But today that feeling is gone. And I think sharing the information on various social media platforms has a lot to do with that. I feel defensive even though I know I have no reason to be. I feel protective even though I know I don’t have to be. I have all these meat-brain feelings today that I don’t want. They’re getting in the way of the reality that I want to experience.

It feels like such a paradox. The information on consciousness research has opened my mind to new possibilities of what reality could be and I wanted nothing more than to just share that information with as many people as I can. I don’t actually care if they agree with it. I only care that they give it a shot. But I can see that people aren’t even doing that before they say ‘fake’ ‘pseudoscience’ ‘frauds’ ‘forged data’ - all the things people say when presented with this information even though there is absolutely no evidence of foul play in the research that’s been published.

I get so worked up over these people even though I know that it really doesn’t matter. I do believe that they’ll understand eventually once their body dies and I think that can be good enough for me. I just want so badly to be on the other side of this paradigm shift that maybe I’m trying to force it on people before they’re ready for it. Maybe sharing this stuff so widely isn’t productive or helpful.

But then I think about all the researchers in this field who deal with this every day as an unavoidable part of their careers. I admire their tenacity because if I was in their place the constant fight to be seen and heard would seriously wear me down and make me depressed. 

I wanted to write this all out to help my meat-brain process these feelings so I can get back to how I want to experience the world.

I posted this on my social media and I’m going to say it here too because this topic is very important to me:

I feel a personal responsibility to share this information with as many people as I can. A lot of people who know me well know that I spend a lot of my free time learning about consciousness.

Mark Gober has compiled an easy to consume literary review of the scientific evidence supporting the theory that consciousness is not generated by the brain, it's something that our brain and body channel from outside our 'meat-bodies' (my words, not his).

His book & his podcast are worthwhile even for those of you who are die-hard materialists. Personally, it has taken me a long time to accept the evidence for non-material reality & I had to read/learn from a lot of different scientists (many of whom are featured in Gober's book & podcast) before reaching this point - after having learned as much as I have, it would be delusional for me to continue to hold tight to a materialist world-view.

The implications of the research are massive & if true and continue to be verified, would lead to a paradigm shift akin to the shift away from earth-centrism in the 1600's. So it makes sense that the research on non-local consciousness has been the target for heavy scrutiny - but despite consciousness research often being held to higher standards than most other research, results higher than chance continue to be demonstrated in laboratory settings. I don't think it makes rational sense to continue to say that these effects are fake.

If you're a podcast listener the content that's found in his book is available on “Where is my Mind?” & his podcast is on all major podcast access points. If you're more of a reader, he also has a book called “An End to Upside-Down Thinking”.

He also has all of his recorded interviews with the scientists who have studied & been published for their work on consciousness available on his website so you can get the information from a primary source if that's more your style.

ALERT!

CONSCIOUSNESS PODCAST!

Mark Gober is a on the board of directors with the Institute of Noetic Sciences (IONS).