Gaslighting myself through anxiety

So SKZ as the 7 deadly sins & reasons

No hate in any of this, I love and respect each member.

Chan- Lust. This one is self explanatory. Could also be greed for the sheer number of children he collects.

Minho- wrath. 20 minutes, 160 degrees.

Changbin- gluttony. "Yeah I'm hungry. I'm hungry! I'M HUNGRY!" That and also the calories required to maintain his body and energy must be more than my entire weight. Not that the others aren't the same but I get the impression he works out more than the others, thus, higher fuel demand.

Hyunjin- envy. Aside from the fact that he is goals and I am VERY envious of him, I also associate envy with dramatics and being petty. Idk the vibes match better.

Jisung- sloth. 90% of his lives are of him in bed. Also he says he likes being horizontal. If it weren't for his stylists, he would absolutely be wearing dirty sweatpants and Crocs on a daily basis.

Felix- greed. Idk this was the last one I could assign ann I'm only giving it to Felix because he was rich before hand and greed and money kinda go hand and hand. Also he has siblings, and there's no way he never antagonized them.

Seungmin- protagonist being tempted by the others. He won't because he takes no shit and slaps some sense into all of them.

i am

Like drum corps has

Forced proximity

Showering together (I mean literally, like 4 people will share a single shower head. You get used to it.)

Constantly busy and separated from other sections

Reasonable to be up at 4am having a conversation ranging from deep trauma dumping to which staff member would look best in drag

Forced proximity

Hot, sweaty, tan, SHIRTLESS people (even women)

Really high emotions

Similarly, extreme amount of stress

Forced proximity

Working out regularly

Basically living together but on the road

Performances (which I know is hard to romanticize if you don't do it but trust - love for people and performing is surprisingly simple to interweave)

Forced proximity

Like that is a pillar of my understanding of whump fics and like- there's research? It's actually safe?

I say in-depth but this was the result of trying not to fall asleep during a lecture so this is based on their real names alone and not the why or how each got the name they did.

Bang Chan- Bahng Christina (Chrissie) (couldn't figure out the whole Chahn thing so I left it out)

Lee Know- Lee Minseo

Changbin- Seo Chawon

Hyunjin- Hwang Hyunjung

Han- Han Jisu

Felix- Lee Felicia

Seungmin- Kim Seungmin (hear me out, his name is technically gender neutral, but typically masculine, but his English name is Sky, which is typically feminine.)