Prissy Sissy Chastity

Muse: Nymph Orchidea

There was a lot of LGBTQ socialization that I was lacking growing up and even well into my adult life. Really, I only started looking for trans content after I was months into HRT and knew I'd need to come out publicly sooner or later.

One comic that kept popping up was Rain by Jocelyn Samara (@lynnsenpai). I went to the first page, and I couldn't stop reading. I binged it in a few days and constantly found myself crying, sometimes sad tears, many more times happy tears.

I'm super late to the party for this one, but in the event you haven't read it, you can check it out here!

aaaaaaanyway, here's some Rain fanart!

Hey, let’s rebound with a happier strip!

Started laser hair removal treatment recently at a place that was recommended to me as very transgender friendly.  They indeed are!

The strip above is not an exaggeration, that was almost word for word how scheduling an appointment went down.  I, major doofus that I am, didn’t realize that I was the “she” they were talking about.  Getting used to hearing “she/her” is going to take some time, it’s a rewiring of my practical application of language.

I look forward to many more doofus moments like this.

Also, in the event anyone is in or near New York City and is looking for a trans friendly laser place, DM me and I’ll send the name and location!

Last night I sat down to write the text post to accompany this comic, but I began spiraling. There were so many things that I wanted to say that before I was even halfway through it was already three pages long.

I’m just going to truncate my thoughts.

It wasn’t the questions that bothered me, it was that I wasn’t believed.

It was that they doubled down and told me that I was “repressed”.

It was that me saying their words hurt me was apparently the wrong thing to say, and I was attacked for doing so.

It was that they told me they didn’t mean to hurt me when I knew that and already said so in my initial text to them.

It was that they told me that they were “going out of their way” for me.

One – trans tomboys exist and just because I might not want the same things you do, that doesn’t mean that my experience is invalid.

Two – I am not your charity case trans person that you need to “go out of your way” for.

Three – I thought I was your friend. In my mind, when you help a friend you’re not “going out of your way”, you help because you genuinely want to and don’t even think about whether or not it’s an inconvenience.

Four – no matter what, I still consider you a friend and though I need some time, I hope some day we can share our journeys with each other again.

The past few days have not been great, so I can only manage a basic vector drawing right now. I don't have many experiences of trans joy, but I wanted to share where I'm at with the process.