✨princess🕊️✨

i want to die and no one cares :DDD

jesus in christ i wish i was neurotypical

being a leo with an ed means thinking i’m so hot but also hating my body more than anything simultaneously 

can feel my shoulders getting smaller<3

my collar bone is sticking out more yuhhhhhh so true

i can see the fat i’ve lost in my face :>> v happy time

my broken little brain doesn’t see recovery as something even remotely possible. even if i can force myself to eat enough, i’m always gonna have mad anxiety about intake and my weight and it is so fucked up i just wish i could be normal

my friend’s mom is being terrible to her. she trashed her room, threw her keyboard down the stairs, and told her to leave the house. i’m her only close friend so she asked if she could stay with me tonight but my mom is saying no and i hate that i can’t be there for her this is so fucked up 

i’m pretty sure the number on the scale isn’t going down because of water weight but does that keep me from FREAKING OUT no

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why can’t i starve myself like before anymore:(

i wish my eating disorder would come back and i hate myself for it

i’d eaten 600-700 calories today but then i ate cheetos and idek how many calories that totaled to. i’m probably up to a thousand now if not more:/