I was wondering how differently Ghiaccio would be if he was a woman. Would fem Ghiaccio be like a femcel, where she still has a lot of insecurities and chronically online (so pretty much regular Ghiaccio). Instead of looking down on women, she looks down on men and sees them as emotionally fragile scumbags who secretly depend on female validation (even though that’s how she acts around darling).
How would fem Ghiaccio act around her darling? I’m writing this with a fem darling in mind, but masc darling is interesting too.
Good ask, peon. I have a lot of thoughts on her. Some would say I'm fond.
Ghiaccio is one of those characters that, no matter his gender, he is very attached to his masculinity. Removing his masculinity makes him less Ghiaccio, and my goal is to keep all of his Ghiaccioness wrapped up nicely with a bow. He would scoff hearing that. When it comes to fem Ghiaccio, she's still very attached to masculinity, and would be defined in modern terms as a very gender-non conforming woman.
Of course, to Ghiaccio though, labels like that mean you're a queer. I have news for her.
I more or less think that they popped out the same way, although fem Ghiaccio has a bit of a complex about her gender on top of regular Ghiaccio's thousand other complexes. It's not that she's upset about being a woman, it's that her relationship with womanhood is more complex than Ghiaccio's relationship with his manhood. She loves being a woman. Why the hell would she want to be a degenerate (REDACTED: NOT NICE WORD). She just.. does not align herself with traditional ideas for what a woman 'should be' at all, but very easily identifies with what's typically expected of a man. It's not that complex, really. Go talk to the average butch lesbian about their relationship with womanhood & gender and come back to me.
It probably didn't help that her online history is the exact same as regular Ghiaccio's. "Boy" videogames. 4chan forums. Porn. Of course she's going to turn out sexist, making everything significantly more complex than it needs to be. I wouldn't really put her in the strictly misandrist category, though. Of course she is, you probably know the word I redacted out before, but she's sexist towards women, too. It's just that she doesn't hate women. Stay with me now. I know this one's a little difficult.
Ghiaccio doesn't necessarily look down on women, it's just that... he's the type of person to hurt someone before they can hurt him. He's playing on the defensive constantly, by being aggressive. Nice, real secure. He values women's opinions a lot more than men's. It stings more when a woman doesn't approve of him, or is upset with him. And, bluntly, he's sexist in the self-hating man way. That typical insecure mid-to-late-twenties guy that's mean because he doesn't want to get hurt. If he's mean first, then that sets the tone for the rest of the relationship, and it helps him avoid the rejection of a woman. In his point of view, anyway. Reality tends to differ.
Ghiaccio never has any value in men's opinions, no matter his gender. You don't get value from men. You get it from women. See? See what I mean? They're just degenerates who do nothing productive in society. Women are... soft. And pretty. And smell nice. And. It doesn't matter stop fucking asking him about it.
I think it's important to keep this aspect of Ghiaccio when swapping his gender. Ghiaccio doesn't care for male validation in the slightest. He cares about female validation. Whenever a man is mean to him, he's mean right back, and forgets about it in an hour. That jerk-off doesn't know what the hell he's talking about. When a woman is mean to him, he's ten and not good enough again. He's mean to her, of course he is, but it stays in his heart for longer than it should.
Fem Ghiaccio is the exact same way, she's extremely terrified of getting rejected by a pretty girl, so she's mean right off the bat. The meaner she is, the more attracted to someone she is. Ever heard that one before? When you weren't five? She says she hates ditzy bimbos that constantly have their tits out, but she can't get off unless she's looking at a pretty girl. She says she hates girly, sweet types, but her heart melts at the idea of one being nice to her. Oh what she'd give to let some dumb bitch use her computer for some lame girl game.
She's the type to collect figurines of busty, girly women and tell herself it's fine because she's not some (REDACTED: NOT NICE WORD) male that's doing it. She lusts after them in the exact same way. I have no further notes on this one.
One small note before I pivot back to actually talking about yandere behavior.... Her physique is more or less the same. I'd put her at the same height as male Ghiaccio, which takes her out of the semi short leaning man category (I have long since forgotten how tall I made him originally) and into the tall woman one. She has broad shoulders, no distinct waist, and hair on her forearms. She compulsively works out.
But, anyway. I've digressed long enough.
Some of my interpretations have a bit of a type that they're attracted to, and Ghiaccio is one of them. It's very obvious that she loves girls that love pink and actually like their femininity. It drives her up the wall to see a girl wearing a skirt in winter. God, she wants to spoil a girl like that. I think Ghiaccio likes two main archetypes of feminine women: Girly, sweet types that have a library card and say "thank you" for everything & spoiled bitches that will demand for Ghiaccio to pay for their "maintenances." She also likes more mature types sometimes. It depends on her mood for what porn category she'll watch that day.
When it comes to finding a darling, she's likely to go for someone that's the perfect example of one of those archetypes, or has qualities of multiple. After all, humans are complex and sometimes have traits that don't match their others. It's normal for a sweet, girly type to also be a bit princessy sometimes. You'd know that if you talked to real women...
I think Ghiaccio can actually be rather shy when she has a crush, just like her male counterpart. It's just cuter, because her face actually goes red whenever she looks at something (Thing?) she likes for too long. She acts curt, and like her darling is such a huge problem or in her way, but she loves to be bothered. Pick her pick her pick her.
She's even worse than male Ghiaccio on that front, because she's more avoidant and her hands actually tremble at the sight of something she really likes. She's just.. cold. (Turn off White Album, maybe?) And who even fucking cares anyway, why are you looking at her so intensely? You got a fucking problem with the way she stands? Fuck off. Fuck!
She's very embarrassed over the way she acts in front of her darling, she wants to be... cool. Attractive. But, it's Ghiaccio. She fumbles often and gets aggressive because she's flustered. She'll go to town on her punching bag over it later to cope.
Ghiaccio would kill to do something cute with her darling. Take her out to get gelato together (That she won't eat, but insists on feeding her darling), go on a cute typical date... She just has a really hard time admitting that that's something she also wants to do, so she acts like she's doing her darling such a huge favor.
And, you know, she probably is doing her darling a favor, seeing as this is the first outside time her darling has had in two months. Sure, Ghiaccio is holding onto her wrist like she has the intention to snap it, but they're outside together. Isn't that what her darling wanted?