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The life update nobody asked for,

I have been touring around and adventuring more than ever. I have been taking lots of photos. I enjoy it, and find it to be a fairly productive use of my time.

I've stepped away from social media dramatically. I don't believe it had been good for me in longterm use. I spend most my of my time reading and have been running as well as I can, although it is definitely not a talent of mine.

I have spent the last couple of years working in remote areas and touring around, camping in the homemade camper on the back of my truck.

Loneliness has become to be more of an issue than I could have anticipated. I've spent the last 3 years almost completely isolated, other than the rare phonecall with family. I have put in a decent effort to meet a woman with no luck. I honestly dont know how to socialize with people that aren't close to me. Plus my lifestyle of camping in extremely remote areas obviously appears sketchy for someone potentially wanting to get to know me.

I've quit smoking and have been staying away from hard booze and alcohol for the most part for over 6 months now. I do enjoy an occasional beer or glass of wine. Since then I have developed some fairly significant and honestly sometimes debilitating anxiety. Mostly in social occasions, (Restaurants, Grocery shopping ect). I dont want to be assessed and am very opposed to be medicated.

Just been in a strange place of doing what's best for myself and get a grip on my anxiety. I always thought it was important to be okay with my own company which was always the case until more recently. Ive just turned 30 and the thought of being alone and not having children scares me. I know there's so much time left and everything will work out. But until then, it just feels so uncertain. Ive always felt like I've had a lot to give so maybe its just the thought of wasted potential.

This account is the only social outlet I have that isn't particularly personally tied to me so I felt like this was a good place to write down some thoughts. I'm not asking for reassurance or validation, I think it was just important to vent.

Just a few photos that were taken during my years off from posting that I hold very close to my heart. My lifestyle never changed, I was out and about more than ever. Without going into too much detail, the absence of human companionship for some years led to some dark days. I've been sober for quite some time now and just beginning to feel like myself again. Things pass, life goes on.