the one and only

I'm the worst you will ever meet. I make you love me Then I make sure you hate me. I so make sure of it. You have no idea. You seriously have no idea.

Going into an imam bargah after so long. Finally have peace.

Can't seem to function anymore. Don't know how To explain to anyone why I am just not able to make my self do anything. I am supposed to study for my cfa and I haven't touched it for the past 2 months and I am finding it so hard to make myself study. I've wasted my money over this and it makes me mad cuz I am just not feeling right anymore. I am so confused with who I want to be. My dreams goals or whateve it is has gone down the drain. I hate living on my own yet I dontwant to go back and be surrounded by drama. I am so much in conflict with myself that I just get so overwhelmed with it all. If I cry to someone all they got to say is that there are people with bigger problems than you. So I shut up about it to people I know my problems are of no value but I feel like my life is headed no where anymore. It's just sadness in the core I Am just living for the sake of living. I wish I could be happy. I wish it so bad but I just can't seem to be it anymore. I am just tired. Really tired

Tera bina kick mujhe Milti nahi.