MY NAME IS AIDEN

Oh yeah, yeah, no changes there so far

he’s gotten reall y quiet lately?? freaks me out tbh

Good. Not really. much the same tbh (that means ‘to be honest’ for al l you non-internet-savvy people out there)

Rick hasn’t said much of,, really anything to me in a whi l e actually. and I still don’t have the firmest oof ggrasps on the typing but that’s also bec asue I’m just the SLIGHTEST bit drunk. I’m not drunk I jad like half of a drink so far 

OH HELLO

uh

I was wrong he literally never left his room

I watched Friends the ENTIRE day and I just have one thing I should probably tell you guys

We took the fight onto the ground and I felt like I was getting the upper hand for once, I was sitting on him and had his arms down, but then he did this twisting thing and next thing I know I'M the one on the ground and he's sitting on me and I'm staring right up at his sweaty man-face

and he like, sits there

for a while

like, longer than is really necessary

the look on his face though, I keep thinking about it. I couldn't figure out if he wanted to cry, kiss me, or punch me in the face

apparently this is a fully functioning 100% alive female body

:(

in other news I wrote my name today in slightly-less-shitty handwriting than I had expected. I'm not about to win any penmanship awards but I mean

the sparring is going well, the jogging, and now I'm not a complete illiterate fuckery

I dunno, I just feel, happy I guess

I was standing there in the corner watching people look at me and decide not to touch paintings and I saw this really cute guy and I thought, "jodie would like that guy"

and I thought about it and decided I DIDN'T like that guy

Then I realized I have a real problem where I inherently dislike attractive men, oops

turns out the boy complained about maltreatment or sth

buddy I spent 20 years in sort-of-solitary confinement and occasionally fighting off flying spirit monsters. some questioning and a bit of shouting is not maltreatment

rick had more questions he looked really concerned as he was asking them like i would snap at him or sth

he was like "so are you still dead or, how does this whole possession thing work"

I said "I think its because I caught the body before it died after jodie left"

"so its... it would die if you left it?"

"well yes and no bc so far I cant actually leave but yeah if I stay outside of it for a long time idk it might die or maybe just coma"

"So youre using it to live the life you were deprived?"

"thats an awfully specific and spot-on way to put it yeah"

the whole convo was so casual I guess I put him at ease

and rick sorta turned to me awkwardly and said "aren't you uncomfortable"

I was at the table and we had pretty cozy chairs--ok it was his chair, he had pretty cozy chairs--so I said "no" and kept drawing, I was doin a pic of stan trying to see if I could get some accuracy. I couldn't byt he way

he said "no I mean, as a girl. In Jodie's body. Isn't that weird?"

I frowned at him like "what's wrong with being a girl"

he got all defensive like "nothing, i just, you ARE a guy aren't you"

I shrugged and didn't say anything

but he got me thinking about it and after like an hour of thought I said "I suppose it would be weird if I'd actually survived"

"survived what"

"being born"

he had this stupid look on his face like "durr I dunno what youre talking about" and then I remembered again that I never told him so I decided to tell him

I said "by the way I'm jodies twin, I died in the womb. it's a long story" and kept drawing, then I realized that was literally the entire story

eventually he went "would you RATHER be a guy"

I went "I dunno, seems like a lot of pointless effort"

ikr at the job for just a couple weeks and already a thing, whoa

not really, it was just some kid who went past a barrier and set off a motion sensor. But I did chase him down, that jogging and all came in handy

I knew about it before kinda but I'd never watched it

Honestly that made me feel SO much better bc jogging I can do perfectly fine and jodie's body is fit and all so I could even keep up with him

I dunno it made me feel capable for once

I challenged him to a race when we were running next to the river and I lost but it felt so good to just sprint u know, I mean, jodie got to do that sort of thing all the time, why didnt she take more advantage of it

ehehehe he 100% wasnt onto me at all, I felt like a super spy planning a subtle and nefarious assassination

I took my phone and casually walked out of the room and called the pizza place but before I could tell them what I wanted suddenly rick shouted "NO ANCHOVIES" from the other room

JOKES ON U BUDDY TURNS OUT I LIKE ANCHOVIES

i dunno I like the super salty taste. rick made a face when I told him that so I ate a anchovy whole right in front of his eyeballs

he said "aiden you're a piece of work, you probably like black licorice too, who does that"