I’m Free. And I Earned It.
My god did I earn it. The last stage of my denial journey ended up with one of the most intense orgasms I have ever had. And I didn’t enjoy it.
Tuesday had been in the planning for weeks. Nearly a month before I had agreed with Denial Bitch that it would be my release day, but with conditions. There were butt plugs and gags and humiliation in the form of having to wet myself and stuff my pissy knickers in my mouth before holding them in place with the gag.
I spent hours thinking about this, before finally decidining that this was what I wanted, what I asked her for, I wanted this experience to be as real as I could make it. Nobody could actually force me to do anthing, or check I had actually done it. But I’d only be cheating myself.
So not long after I resigned myself to having to taste my own pee from my own knickers right through my orgasm, She reminded me of that final condition. 10 minutes with the magic wand, non stop. 10 fucking minutes. Suddenly the pee thing seemed so much easier.
But I agreed to this, so I had to see it through.
I was deliberately working from home for the day, and I had the evening to myself as well so was hoping for a quiet day so I could make the most of this.
Of course this didn’t happen. Work was a nightmare. I managed to chat to Denial Bitch and get a couple of edges in early in the morning, but was on the phone from around 10am onwards till gone 1.30pm.
It calmed down a bit after that and after I calmed down a little bit (you know what I was doing) I put my small plug in and had something to eat. It was quite a strange sensation sitting at my kitchen table, visible to the neighbours wearhing nothing but a summer dress and a butt plug. I rocked on it gently as I was eating which got me really horny.
After lunch I went back to my desk, I knew I had work I needed to do still but hoped it hadn’t been added to. It hadn’t, happily. I rolled up a towell tight, put it on my chair and straddled it. If you’ve not tried this, you should, its almost equisite. You can hump if you want (or in my case even it you don’t want. it just sort of happens), or try to ignore it. But you can’t, especially when plugged, it just presses and rubs against everything, all the time. Impossible to ignore. Wear knickers. It hurts after a while otherwise. Or don’t, if you want it to hurt :-)
After chatting to Denial Bitch, plugged, on my towel, edging over and over, literally every few minutes as I was so so close, I asked Her to put me on no-touch. I was afraid I couldn’t hold it otherwise. And I have no willpower myself, if I’m not told ‘no touch’ I can’t stop. Being ordered makes it so much easier.
She put me on no-touch for an hour, but I stayed online with Her, still chatting and teasing, so while it stopped me from cumming before fulfilling my conditions, it definitely wasn’t easy!
Denial Bitch came back on at 5 and we talked for a while. I told her I had to go to the shops after I finished work. She instanty demanded I wore a crotch rope when I went, and put me on no touch for 30 minutes from when I got home.
Wtaf! The crotch rope is worse than the towel, and as I quickly bought the things I needed from the supermarket, I could feel the damn thing pressing my knickers inside my pussy lips, sliding up and down my clit and pressing the plug in and out with every step I took. My knickers absorbed most of my desperation but it already felt like I’d peed myself i was so wet.
And taking the damn thing off when I got home! All I wanted to do was rub away the soreness, let my fingers explore the wet sticky mess I had become. But I couldn’t. No touch. That 30 minutes lasted a long time.
I made a quick dinner in my hyper-aroused state, rocking on the plug again as I ate, not really noticing the taste of the food, just rocking and looking at Tumblr until I’d finished.
I peed (normally), went back upstairs with a pint of water and a glass of wine, and started edging again. Denial Bitch wasn’t online sadly, and neither was anyone else who knew what I was doing, which was a shame, I had hoped to be able to share it. But never mind. I was cumming soon.
I looked, mostly, at denial blogs on Tuimblr, and a little bit at denial videos I’ve found over the last couple of months. I saved the best on till later though. I teased and tortured my pussy, getting ever closer, but careful not to get too close. I didn’t want an accidental ruin at this point! (Note to those people who just read that and thought how great it would be if I had ruined at that point - you’re all fuckers and I hate you).
At around 9pm after another large glass of wine, I went into the bathroom, removed the small plug I had in, and washed. This was unsexy and killed my mojo a little, I don’t usually have to keep going after taking a plug out. I touched and played in the shower till I was horny again, then dried myself, and with the help of some very interesting warm/minty lube, put my inflatable plug in. Even deflated its significantly bigger than the other one, and I can’t wear it for long. It hurt a little even though I took it really slowly so I played with my clit with my eyes closed for a few minutes until I’d got used to it. And its like a tap. I was dripping, probably before the pain even went away.
I slipped my knickers back on, realsing too late it would have been far better to pee in them before I had the plug in to stop the lube from getting on them, but it was too late. Best do this quickly.
Except I couldn’t. I don’t usually have trouble peeing but when I’m really turned on it can be really hard, and it just wasn’t cooperating. I managed a small trickle in the end. Not quite what I had imagined and probably not what Denial Bitch expected, but nothing else was coming out. I slipped my knickers down to my knees, they were wet anyway, but the evidence of what I;’d just done was there to see; the trickle had been more than I thought. And I probably needed to drink more, that wasn’t good. Too late.
I went back to my desk, made sure my wand was plugged in, my plug (which vibrates) had batteries, did my collar up, slightly too tight, around my neck (this was not a requirement but it felt right) and took a deep breath.
And at about 9.30 pm, I stuffed my pissy panties in my mouth, locked them in place with a small ball gag.
I turned the plug on to a low setting, and pumped it up to the point it was just getting uncomfortable, started the video I had saved from earlier, turned the wand on low and pressed it onto my clit.
I watched this, which is one of the most delicious video’s I’ve seen, and 10 minutes long, which was perfect. I turned the plug up to full. Ugh. Love it.
I tried to hold out, I knew 10 minutes was going to be a long, long time. I turned the wand up, then up, and up some more till it was on full power.
I came, hard, at 3 minutes. It was really powerful, and after I wanted to stop, to enjoy it, just let my body drift, but I wasn’t allowed (I told you at thew start, I didn’t enjoy it, that was a lie, I really enjoyed the orgasm, but the moments after were horrid!). @thoughtfulsublimefox had given me some advice on how to cope, I closed my eyes and just tried to shut my brain off, let my body do what it needed to. I actually drifted, floating elsewhere for what seemed like a long time just listening to Alena’s delicious desperation and Rosie’s delightful teasing. I opened my eyes as the my pussy started to twitch in a good way again and the intensity returned, 7 minutes. I was shocked it was only 7 minutes, it felt like a lifetime.
I could feel another orgasm building, I let it, and I came again, just after the video finished. This was less powerful than the first but god it was good, and the moment it happened, I pulled the gag out of my mouth, gagged as I took the knickers out, and then just sort of zoned out for a while, breathing hard and touching myself all over languidly, slowly, enjoying the sensations on my nipples and tummy as I slid my fingers over them.
I came again before bedtime too, no edging, no porn, just me, my fingers and my pussy. And my orgasm.
My name is Praius and I will cum when I want to.
I am forever grateful to Denial Bitch for making this such an amazing experience for me. Thank you darling.
