also…

i deserve more than the love

you want to give.

and i can’t teach you to give

the way i need you to.

all this time i’ve spent trying to prove

that you could. all this time i waisted,

because you meant

everything

to me, and i

meant nothing to you.

and thats okay, i’ll be fine. if you would just

stop double crossing my mind.

you used to hold me when i needed it.

i’ll find someone to hold me because they need it.

the way your cheeks blush,

the glitter on your eyelids,

and most importantly

the way your body language

and i should have made the first move.

but i dont,

i cant

ruin what we have. my bestfriend.

i can feel our backs against each other

before i’m even fully conscious,

and you never stir in the morning, because I

am always the first to wake.

i love that every morning i am able to lay

in bed with you, and here you breathe.

belongings look nice

mixed together like that. yours

in mine. mine

in yours. us

sitting amongst our

it gives me one more excuse

to have you near me.

i’ll make your coffee, plain.

and my black tea.

we’ll sit by the window,

I want to go on adventures with you. let’s hike Machu Picchu.

if i said, “you look nice”?

i liked it when you remembered

i cant handle too much spice

in my tea in the mornings.

you want to make plans for

our

weekends and,

i’m so excited that you’ve

begun to create a chapter for me in your

life. I am honored