âLet me see that,â Lily said as she reached for the book Severus had in his hands with the intentions of taking it from him. Clearly, whatever it was he was reading was interesting if he needed to taunt her so with it. It made her wonder if it was some new potion had been invented or a new charm she needed to read up on or anything really. The free access to an endless library was one of the things she actually missed about Hogwarts. Outside the summers when she ran around with the other Muggleborns, free of torment from the Purebloods, under the watchful eye of Minerva McGonagall.
She flipped through the pages only half reading the words written there. Part of her wondered if there would ever be a time when things would be different and the other part of her didnât want things to change. The world was what it was but she had a few good friends and life could be worse.
âToday is my sisterâs birthday,â she muttered quietly. It was the thought that had been bouncing around her head all day. She hadnât seen Petunia in years and years,
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A grin equal parts genuine amusement and smug mischief was stretched across Severus' face as he leaned backwards and raised the book higher, trying to keep it of Lily's reach. Â It was the latest edition of a theoretical research text, nearly impossible to find normally, but given as a gift (or an incentive?) by one of his pureblood clients. The memory of poring over the previous edition with Lily back in the Hogwarts library was still so vivid in his mind, he hadn't been able to resist from taunting her with the newest version.
Of course, against Lily, he never stood a chance.
Severus made one last desperate attempt to hold on as he felt the hard cover slip from between his fingers, then flopped back down onto the couch pillows with a soft chuckle. He should have expected that when flaunting it - there was no getting between Lily and knowledge. The crackling fire and the flipping of pages were the only sounds in the room for a while, and Severus basked contently in the moment. That was, until she mentioned her sister.
His whole body stiffened and he sat up, watching her intently. He could feel the familiar old ball of guilt rising in his chest - it was partially (rather significantly, he thought) his selfishness that had led to Lily's separation from her family. Â He had never been particularly fond of Petunia, but as the years went by it was hard not to let nostalgia colour the early memories in Spinner's End with Lily. His last memory of Petunia was after all that of a child, and time had worn away the sharper edges of his dislike.
Severus opened his mouth, and then closed it, furrowing his brows as he tried to think of something to say. He had never been one to offer words of comfort, always awkward and sarcastic, but this was Lily, so he would try. He reached over to lower the book so he could see her face clearly. Â Still he hesitated, a hundred offhand comments and remorseful apologies rising to the surface. He bit them back and instead spoke quietly.
"Are you okay?"














