But what if I can't handle marriage??
So I'm in work and we were talking about weddings and people and relationships ...etc.
And suddenly someone asked me: what about you, how will your wedding be???
My answer was a bit shocking to them: I won't get married!
That was very weird to them, seeing in many cultures marraige is a very essential part in our lives and without it we would be demolished. I agree with this...
But what if I can't get married, or what if I can't handle marriage??
Their questione was why and my answer was simple, I don't how to be married, I can't handle a huge responsibility like this.
They started giving me advices and tips and stories on how marriage is helpful and very good and love will come ...etc , but they never listened to me when I said I can't handle it.
They say God gives and takes, and I believe that God has given me knowledge and the eagerness for science, but he took away my capability to love someone else and be in a committed relationship with them. And I believe He did this for a good reason I yet to find.
I feel people persistence on the others to have relationships all the time will lead to a catastrophe, people tend to jump in any sort of relationship they find just to get rid of the status "single", as if it was a taboo. But what's the price, their happiness and self satisfaction.
We are not the same, we're different and once we realize what's our hidden talents we will live happily.
Meanwhile I believe that I will not handle marriage right now, maybe in the future,maybe never. But I won't stop learning.