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1:Talk about the first time you watched your favorite movie. - pulp fiction, my family was passed out and i saw it on the xbox and thought “hey this looked cool” and i almost didn’t watch it because the opening credits seemed like ending credits and i was alone on my couch on a dark morning.  2:Talk about your first kiss. - ryan was his name, going by taylor at the time, i met him earlier that night at the skating rink with my friend lindsay, we all eneded up staying over at my house, we were joking around and he said tickle me one more time and i’ll kiss you and i tried to call his bluff. 3:Talk about the person you’ve had the most intense romantic feelings for. - it was a bad match with lots of bad happenings and it all hurt and i never want to go back to that place in my life.  4:Talk about the thing you regret most so far. - not respecting myself enough until now. had i known my worth years ago and had standards set things would be different. 5:Talk about the best birthday you’ve had. - my eighteenth birthday oh my god. deadpool strip tease, beerpong with the best, fuckboy drama, and loss of memory before waking up next to shaun. the best i’ve ever had, not to mention the only time anyone wanted to do anything with me for my birthday.  6:Talk about the worst birthday you’ve had. - well considering none before have been memorable enough for me to recall atm, probably all of the ones before.  7:Talk about your biggest insecurity. - idk when i get insecure i get insecure about every single thing about me so.  8:Talk about the thing you are most proud of. - that i’ve managed to live to see today. for the bigger part of my life that i can remember i didn’t see myself living to 18.  9:Talk about little things on your body that you like the most. - orion’s belt. 10:Talk about the biggest fight you’ve ever had. - i don’t really get into fights, but the first event that came to mind, i don’t really know much about besides what i’ve been told. i guess i was intimidating to some of my friends.  11:Talk about the best dream you’ve ever had. - i had a dream i was on a train with shaun and i was holding his hand and we were watching the scenery. 12:Talk about the worst dream you’ve ever had. - reoccurring nightmares thanks to my past :-) 13:Talk about the first time you had sex/how you imagine your first time. - i was 14, it hurt and wasn’t very fun. there are times that i regret it with all my heart. in those times i wish i shared that with someone who loved me, but all the same it’s whatever. 14:Talk about a vacation. - i went to Sedona, AZ with my brother when i was young, it first opened my eyes to how wonderful the world can be.  15:Talk about the time you were most content in life. - when i get to play minecraft for hours with Shaun, or when we sit on the couch and each play on our 3DS now that we both have one ; w ;  16:Talk about the best party you’ve ever been to. - anytime i’m with my fam. i never knew how good it felt to have friends until i had them. Shaun introduced me to them and i’ve met some of the most colorful people who share the bEst energies.  17:Talk about someone you want to be friends with. - i want to be friends with someone like me tbh. not trying to sound narcissistic at all i am an awesome person to have as a friend and i want one like me.  18:Talk about something that happened in elementary school. - i had a huge crush on a boy named hunter and i embarrassed myself in front of him when i had ants in my pants. another boy, jody,  offered me a piggy back ride then threw me off his back, fracturing my arm.   19:Talk about something that happened in middle school. - early middle/ v late elementary is when i met shaun. i believe the summer between. i found out what depression was in middle school. i started smoking weed.  20:Talk about something that happened in high school. - a lot of really bad shit. but i’m recovering. i think. 21:Talk about a time you had to turn someone down. - this guy smoked me out and tried to put some moves on me. i had to shove him off of me. i have a class with him now and it’s awkward. i broke up with a decent guy for a really not good guy. decent guy turned semi stalker, i was scared coming home for at least a month.  22:Talk about your worst fear. - my worst fear is the person i love not loving me anymore. i unknowingly faced it for far too long.  23:Talk about a time someone turned you down. - !!! we were both young and the 2 year difference seemed waaay more steep then. he didn’t realize he was turning me down and we’re basically living together now. (can i talk about shaun more pls) 24:Talk about something someone told you that meant a lot. - everything happens for a reason. i remind myself this when i get stuck in thoughts of the past.  25:Talk about an ex-best friend. - there isn’t much to say besides we grew apart. we turned into polar opposites when we used to get along like peanut butter and jelly. she’ll forever be one of the best friendships i ever had.  26:Talk about things you do when you’re sick. - eat hot n spicy chicken ramen soup cups. 27:Talk about your favorite part of someone else’s body. - shaaaaaun’s everything. but we have a joke about his back. cause he has a really nice back.  28:Talk about your fetishes. - i'm way too sub for my own good.  29:Talk about what turns you on. - whispering around my ear and rough grabbing.  30:Talk about what turns you off. - bad odors.  31:Talk about what you think death is like. - a wave of silence. after death is a different story.  32:Talk about a place you remember from your childhood. - amazing jake’s, an indoor amusement thing around the corner from my old house in arizona. i only was able to go there once and i had way too much fun.  33:Talk about what you do when you are sad. - get way way way tooo sad.  34:Talk about the worst physical pain you’ve endured. - emotional pain can become physical pain, and even my bones breaking exaggerated by my childhood mindset was nothing compared to my heart breaking.  35:Talk about things you wish you could stop doing. - dreading school, if i could enjoy it more then maybe it would go by quicker.  36:Talk about your guilty pleasures. - i can never think of one tbh. 37:Talk about someone you thought you were in love with. - he was a pathological liar, and the first person to show me how a relationship was almost supposed to go. he still crossed way too many lines and ended up being just about as bad as everyone else i had dated before.  38:Talk about songs that remind you of certain people. - darrlynn - truffle butter. shaun - post to be oR I CAN SWING MY SWORD everyone else that i hang with regularly - party in the usa or bromance 39:Talk about things you wish you’d known earlier. - i wish i knew to put myself first. i wish i knew that love wasn’t in any person who fucks you when they’re lonely/drunk/bored. i wish i knew how to be more outgoing earlier too. i wish i knew how to contour earlier.  40:Talk about the end of something in your life. - i’d really rather not get into the only thing that comes to mind i’ve probably touched on it more than enough.

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Kissed someone I never kissed before. Did something I regret. Painted a picture. Dyed my hair. Got a new haircut I thought I’d never get before. Wrote a poem. Graduated from High School. Graduated from College. Applied for Graduate School. Ran a mile. Ate much healthier. Ended toxic friendships. Gained a new friend. Gained a new best friend. Visited a foreign country. Lied. Had a fight with my parents. Had a secret/kept a secret. Realized my homosexuality. Realized my bisexuality. Realized my pansexuality. Realized my asexuality. Broke a promise. Slept under the stars. Stayed up until sunrise. Pushed someone away. Got in a fight. Slept with someone other than my significant other. Finally allowed myself to let go of my first love. Actually allowed myself to fall in love. Attended a party. Got dumped. Got a new piercing/tattoo. Learned that I wasn’t cis gender. Drank underage/used illegal substances. Attended a concert. Attended a musical. Traveled to another city. Broke someone’s heart. Hiding something from someone. Made someone’s day. Cheated on a test/homework. Physically cheated on my significant other. Emotionally cheated on my significant other. Found love. Quit a job. Got a new job. Learned to dislike someone I thought I never would. Learned to be more patient. Saw the supermoon. Saw the meteor shower.

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Real Friends | Dan Lambton

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