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Let's go in reverse chronological order for posts:

July 22 (12.02PM KST) - La Vida Es Un Carnaval by Celia Cruz

All those who believe life is always cruel / need to know that's not the case / That in life there are bad moments and everything passes! / All those who believe that this will never change / need to know that's not the case / ... / For those that always complain (out with them!) / For those that live sinning (out with them!) / For those who wield weapons (out with them!) / For those that wage war (out with them!) / For those that infect us (out with them!)

I think it's possible that this was part of the "we're having the time of our life in Greece!!1!" push but I'll also say that "carnaval" can kinda sorta be translated as "circus" too🫠

July 16 (12.51PM EET) - song not embedded but quoted from Parisienne Walkways by Gary Moore and Phil Lynott

I remember Paris in ‘49 The Champs-Élysées, Saint Michelle and old Beaujolais wine And I recall that you were mine

It's interesting to me that he did NOT add this song but posted the lyrics. Suggests to me that he didn't want it confused that he meant what he meant with the song he chose. And I think it sounds like he is talking about his relationship with K being in the past tense. Lost "love". I think we need to talk about him unarchiving the post from over a year ago that had C's "dats ma baby" comment about 4 days before this post. Past tense vs. present tense. You "were" mine vs. dat"s" ma baby. Actually let's have that one next here (out of order but relevant!!!):

July 8, 2025 (8.34PM PT) - 2 seater by Montell Fish & dj gummy bear

She said she love me / She'll never leave me / And that she want me / It's evil / I'm with the demons / ... / She said she love me / 'Til she don't love mе / And then she done with mе / Only / Fucking lonely / Baby, I'm done with this / No more / No more / Cannot deal with this / For sure / On a new thing / Onto new things / Woke up / I don't wanna do any wrong / Feel like stuffs going wrong

I mean... I'm not positive why he chose it originally last year [verrry possible that they were in their toxic off cycle then] but him unarchiving it in the middle of the Paris trip is verrry interesting isn't it? I don't even have to commentate as to what the lyrics because there are no metaphors lol it's preeetty clear🥲

July 9 (7PM CET) - Corsa Notturna by Johan Lenox as part of The Plague Original Motion Picture Score

It should be noted that the post originally didn't have music. It was added after at least several hours. And there are no lyrics but the synopsis for the movie (that he had recommended about 1.5 months prior) is: Adolescence can be scary, especially if you struggle to fit in with your peers. It can be a time of intense pressure and confusion, as you inch toward your adulthood and all its complications. With it comes the burden to prove yourself through the defined constructs of gender and sexuality. “The Plague” (2025), written and directed by Charlie Polinger, tells the story of a tween, born out of similar fears, trying to flourish in a new environment with same-age peers, while struggling to cope with the pressures that come with that experience.

June 3 (4.58PM ET) - Do It to It by Cherish ft. Sean P

(Yeah, A-Town, yeah) / ... / No need to ask where I'm from, you already know / I represent the "A" from my head to my toes

Yes, "Do It to It" as in "yeahhh I did it"... but also VERY clearly about ATLANTA that he was on his way to in a few days. And who was in ATL then again?😇😇😇

EXTRA! - May 31 - CRANK by Slayyyter

I'm getting tweaky, I'm headin' out, bitch, I'm on to somethin' / I stray just like a dog, addicted to that heavy fucking / I wanna get on it, jump on him, ride it until the mornin' / I'm leavin' this party, it's shit, and all these bitches boring / ... / I get so gay off that Tequila / I need some dick for Tuesday, let me go put out some feelers / ... / Get to my hotel and suck him off in the elevator / Saint Laurent, jacket on the ground, I'm a moneymaker

😏😏😏😏😏 Huddy is the greatest poet of our generation lol

May 5 (6.19PM ET) - Woo by Rihanna

I am too traumatized to discuss this one.

March 19 (9.56AM PT) - Movies by Weyes Blood

This is how it feels to be in love / This is life from above / There's no books anymore / I'm bound to that summer / Big box office hit / Making love to a counterfeit

I'll be honest it's verrry possible he chose this one because of the name but it is interesting that it kinda sorta reflects him seeing his life from outside his own body. Maybe? Too abstract for me lol

ALSO! Important that this (contractually obligated) post was shared daaays after the event. Almost as if he was negotiating about something? Also happened with the CSAs post.....

March 9 (9.48PM PT) - Party and Bullshit by The Notorious B.I.G.

I really think this one is what it says on the tin lol he partied and bullshat

January 20 (3.09PM CET) - Salvatore by Lana Del Rey

The summer's wild and I've been waiting for you all this time / I adore you, can't you see you're meant for me? / The summer's hot, but I've been cold without you / ... / Now it's time to eat soft ice cream

I'll say the Italian references are probably why he chose this one but the ice cream ref 5 days before the OG ice cream hostage situation feels diabolical lol

January 18 (5.59PM CET) - HELICOPTER by A$AP Rocky

I don't really have commentary on the lyrics but I'll say the song apparently came out 6 days before H posted it so it gives you an idea of how big of a fan he is and why he'd buy tix waaay in advance for the Canada Day concert...

January 4 (4.06PM PT) - black out by Kids don't smoke

'Cause I've been drinking 'til it's dark out / Drinking 'til I black out / Didn't really stick to the plan / And now we fucked, and I'm fucked / And it got out of hand / I know she has all these plans / For her to leave me, deceive mе, and cheat me / Defеat me, to tease me, and treat me / Like she doesn't need me / She told me not to tie it down / Move to the city, stick to the plan / Should've left three whiles ago / I just wanted things to go slow

This one is honestly kinda insane to me and I never really saw anyone talking about it before? I knowww it's very possible that he chose it because of the band's name BUT I'll say one of the reasons I was an NYE truther for the longest time was this post lol

(Also maybe unrelated, but I feel like the reason H posted this out of nowhere in the first place is because we were expecting the boys to show up at the Critics Choice Awards when it was figured out that F was there and there was like maybe less than an hour where everyone was looking at multiple sources trying to figure out if they would be there when H posted and we were like "...oh". ALL THIS TO SAY, I feel like it's possible H posted something when he saw us spiraling to be like "pls calm down yall me and my baby boy are still in van enjoying each other before we have to go on a never-ending press tour that will keep us apart for a while🥺")

January 2 (9.40PM PT) - Unravel by Ellisa Sun

Bring me back to life / Oh, spring me anew / Oh, it's beginning to unravel me and you / ... / Call me down, call me down from planet earth / Wake me up oh shake off my nerves / Oh then push me to sea / I can feel feel feel the sand on my skin / You’re without I’m within / Where you’ve gone I’ve been / ... / It’s an uphill climb, this heart of mine / Feel like I’m two steps from tumbling down / Got both feet off the ground / All black and blue

Did H choose this? Or was it Timid?😅 In any case, it's an interesting choice exploring breaking down walls into new love... and did yall know that the Timid shoot was done in the morning of the HiTops night?🫠

November 29 (12.33PM PT) - I Will Follow Him by Peggy March

I will follow him / Follow him, wherever he may go / There isn't an ocean too deep / A mountain so high it can keep me away / I must follow him / Ever since he touched my hand I knew / That near him I always must be / And nothing can keep him from me / He is my destiny / I love him, I love him, I love him / And where he goes I'll follow, I'll follow, I'll follow / He'll always be my true love, my true love, my true love / From now until forever, forever, forever

Genuinely what the fuck, Hudson?😭😭😭 In my headcanon, this is potentially a couple days after the boys got together and this insane post by H literally serves as a love letter to C and a love confession to the world🥹 Not much to say that H didn't say with his song choice🥲

November 3 (1.14PM PT) - Yoko Loko - The Walking Dead by Scarlxrd

I'll confidently say this was just about playing a zombie lol

October 27 (2.15PM PT) - I Want Someone Badly by Shudder to Think

Now I want someone badly / Got a girl here tonight / Wants someone new / Someone new / A little cry wants someone badly / I wanna know if this is a bad lease on me / I wanna know / Am I sure that I heard you right / I wanna know / If you're leaving, just do it tonight / Now I want someone badly / To burn in here with me / You better listen, baby / 'Cause I, I cry all over madly (cry) / Don't do anything, do it with me / Ooh, I want to know (I wanna know) / Am I sure that I have your love / I wanna know (I wanna know) / If you're leaving, just make sure it's right / Now I, I want someone badly / Well, could it be true / That someone is you

It's possible this was a song that was played at the wedding he went to but I genuinely think this was also about H stewinggg in his feelings for C for months at that point and he wanted him badly🙃

October 12 (6.36PM PT) - Sandman by A$AP Rocky

I really don't know how to comment on rap songs😭😭😭

September 16 (archived) - It's Okay To Care by PLEXØS

This is an instrumental one so I'm not sure make of it sonically but if anyone would like to jump in, please do!

EDIT: VERY IMPORTANT ADDITION BY @ramblingblingblings

Fun fact: It's Okay To Care by PLEXØS is super niche song/artist but guess who has liked it on Soundcloud? TZAR DOMYNIK, ofc. My headcanon is that C played it to H during the September visit.

September 11 (archived) - Whole Wide World by Wreckless Eric

When I was a young boy / My mama said to me / "There's only one girl in the world for you / And she probably lives in Tahiti" / I'd go the whole wide world / I'd go the whole wide world just to find her / Or maybe she's in the Bahamas / Where the Carribean sea is blue / Weeping in a tropical moonlit night / Because nobody's told her 'bout you / ... / Why am I hanging around in the rain out here / Trying to pick up a girl? / Why are my eyes filling up with these lonely tears / When there're girls all over the world? / Is she lying on a tropical beach somewhere / Underneath the tropical sun? / Pining away in a heatwave there / Hoping that I won't be long / I should be lying on that sun-soaked beach with her / Caressing her warm brown skin / And then in a year or maybe not quite / We'll be sharing the same next of kin

We've talked a bit about this before but another truly insane entry from Loverboys 3000 and 4000🫠 They didn't have to go the whole wide world to find each other as they were fortunately separated by $300 and 2 odd hours only❤️

August 14 (4.29PM PT) - Bleach by $uicideboy$

Stop telling me what to think (Assumptions, assumptions, assumptions) / Stop telling me what to think, to think / Stop, stop telling me, stop telling what to think / (Assumptions always being that) / Stop, stop telling me what to think (Stop)

I'm hesitant to assign meaning to rap songs but this part stood out to me... maybe about Someone telling him what to think about Something? Maybe it's pushing it lol but you never know!😅

June 17, 2025 (10.52AM PT) - Song Of The Seasons by Crazy Horse and Neil Young

Song of the seasons coming through me now / Like the wind in your hair / We're so together in the way that we feel / That we could wind up anywhere / ... / From over there I see you wavin' at me / I feel the lightness in your step / I see the flicker of your loving eyes / In the stories our love has kept

I'll say that Neil Young is apparently a very famous-in-Canada folk singer and his songs are widely known by most Canadians. So it is possible he chose it primarily because of that (we'll come to this later) but it's also a song about enduring love in the face of physical separation. Relevant, no?🥹

May 10, 2025 (6.38PM ET) - So Hood by Bullys Wit Fullys

I really don't know how to comment on rap songs again😭😭😭

April 9, 2025 (5.42PM PT) - Perth by Bon Iver

I'm not positive any of the lyrics are related but I thought this👇🏼 was interesting:

Bon Iver's song "Perth" is an emotional tribute tied to grief, an awakening, and a conceptual representation of birth or a beginning. Justin Vernon wrote the track after spending a grueling three days with music video director Matt Amato, whose best friend, actor Heath Ledger (who was born in Perth, Australia), suddenly passed away.

I'm stealing this from @this-daydream-is-dangerous-13 but H had just created his new IG in March and quickly filled it with three posts to start a grid before leaving for Toronto. And C was one of his verrry first followers. And again, maybe it's pushing it but Heath Ledger is one of H's favorite actors and he's pretty often compared to C in terms of looks... so maybe something there?🫠

April 7, 2025 (5.57PM PT) - Have A Cigar by Pink Floyd

You're gonna fly, you're never gonna die / You're gonna make it if you try, they're gonna love you / Well, I've always had a deep respect and I mean that most sincere

I'll say that this was his "omg I think I made it" post with his farewell to The Old Spaghetti Factory in it as well. He feels on top of the world and he's talking about how "he's gonna make it and people are gonna love him". And they dooo🥲❤️

It's impossible to do all the stories so I'll just do a few key ones that I think are relevant:

July 22 - Alter Ego by Doechii & JT

Nah, nah, nah-nah, nah / These hoes ain't phasin' me, phasin' me / Nah, nah, nah-nah, nah boo-boo bitch / You dead to me, you dead to me (Alter ego) / Dead to me (Alter ego) / Dead to me / Nah, nah, nah-nah, nah / These hoes ain't phasin' me, phasin' me

I will 100% die on the hill that this was NOT directed at the fans (like truly what the actual fuckkk?) as a not insignificant amount of people were convinced. It was directed at K, Elena, and Morgan. I think this became even cleared with Buzzfeed's article pulling back the curtain that the intended song was probably "Rich Baby Daddy by Drake" with the higlighted lyrics "Hood bitch, tat her gang 'fore she tat her name / Real bitch, held me down 'fore I had a name / Heard there's money on my head, what is that to me? / I put a hundred bands on him, he put a rack on me / We from two different worlds, but it's a match to me / The bend it over only time she turn her back on me". Sound familiar? Talking about tattoos? She was there before I had a name? As in literally the narrative they were painting for K from day fucking one with the VDay story. The "you're dead to me" is H pushing back on it and letting those three women what he thinks about them. And the "alter ego" part? As in "I have to don an alter ego when I'm around #her"??? Yeah. Not directed at fans at all.

May 20 (12.30PM PT) - Harvest Moon by Neil Young

Because I'm still in love with you / I want to see you dance again / Because I'm still in love with you / On this harvest moon

Here's when we go back to our previous point about Neil Young being a Canadian phenomenon. This story was actually maybe the very first thing I discussed on my blog because it dropped the day I started it🫠 Let's do a quick rundown of the summary of Stoner's romantic themes:

While Stoner is primarily a portrait of quiet endurance, its romantic themes highlight the tragic gap between William Stoner's profound capacity for love and the crushing realities of his life. His early marriage to Edith begins with romantic idealism but quickly turns into a cold, emotionally abusive prison, demonstrating how societal expectations can trap two ill-suited people. Decades later, Stoner experiences true romantic fulfillment through a passionate, intellectual affair with a young instructor, Katherine Driscoll. This relationship serves as the novel's emotional peak, showing romance not merely as physical attraction, but as a rare, transformative union of minds and spirits. Ultimately, the book portrays romance as a beautiful but fragile sanctuary that, though cut short by social conventions and professional malice, provides Stoner with a vital taste of the passion and meaning he always sought.

Long-term loveless marriage vs. passionate intellectually-matched love affair. Sound familiar enough to anyone?

And I'll say again the song is possibly chosen because he's Canadian (lol) but it's also about still being in love with that passionate lover and wanting to be with them again. And any way you cut it, it's not about choosing the loveless long term relationship as some people thought lol

April 15 - she want by campthehills

I think I'm losing it / She want an astronaut to talk about and take her on a trip / She wanna talk it out, I'm walkin' out / I'm done with all this shit / She want, she want, she wants another hit / She want, she want, she wants another hit

Okayyy finally!!! This is about a month after H last saw K in person in LA before shipping her back home and staying with C for another week lol and I for one was convinced that it meant Breakup before I learned more about The Situation. It's still interesting though because it still hints at their toxic dynamic even as friends/fake dating for the public. She always wants. And he's done with all this shit. I rest my case, your honor.

THAT'S IT🫠🫠🫠 I hope you enjoyed this!!! It took way too long but I'm happy with it I think🥲 Pleaseeeee feel free to bring in your thoughts here so we can have a discussion😇🫂