I Was Free In The Fall, Now Im Lost In The Moment.

Someone to tell you your beautiful, someone to tell you and mean it… 🖤

Crazy how I’m always there for everyone, and I have no one. Absolutely no one. I don’t want pity. But when I stop and sit down at the end of the day, all the thoughts start. I have been there for them all even when I was ready to give up on life…. I was there. But I have no one. I don’t know where to start, I feel like I get better ❤️‍🩹 but am I really? It’s a never ending cycle of emotions, like a sealed bottle and my emotions are spinning around, being shaken endlessly. 🖤

Somebody who can make it better. Somebody who can open up where your heart is, so I can love you regardless. 💕

I just feel so sad inside.

Felt more depressed than usual today… just felt like I wanted to be alone and cry….went and got some booze to take the edge off.. now to drift on into dreamland 🍃

I just want to be loved and have the chance to love a person back.. They say your soulmate always finds you, instead of you looking for them... What is a soulmate? A beacon of hope? A best friend? A lover? 

Everyone says “you should talk about it”.. So, I did, I gave the people I thought could help a chance to see the demons that I face day to day. And what happened? Those same things I was told to talk about were thrown back at me.. Like daggers dipped in poison...

Wondering if I will ever be okay...

Cherish your innocence… don’t be like me and give in to 2 minutes of peer pressure… you’ll regret it later 🤦🏽‍♀️🥺