Sakura Atomi

“I don’t get mad anymore, I just get really quite. Why keep talking when they’re not really hearing you?”

“You did what you did, I felt what I felt, and it is what it is.”

If I could do it all again, I would stay up later. I would ask more questions, unashamed of how personal they were and not afraid that I wouldn't like the answers. If I could start over with you, I wouldn't doubt my instincts. I wouldn't fear what people thought if I catered to your every whim and laughed at every stupid joke. If I could try again, I would embrace every moment of every fight and ask for everything I needed from you. I wouldn’t worry if I was too needy, too attached, too much of anything. I would be myself more. I would scream louder. I wouldn’t of hesitated to tell you I love you, in every way, everyday. If I could do it again, I would not love you in halting steps always looking for some sort of validation that I was stepping on solid ground. I would jump into you and if you didn’t catch me, than I would still be picking up the same broken pieces I am now.

“Oh, honey, I truly thought that maybe I could have held on for us both. Honestly, you could have kept your head above the waves, but ‘that’s no fun’. You need to suffocate to feel okay. And, baby, I should let go, but I, too, like submerging my heart until my heartache melts into pain and we’re dancing mindlessly in the middle of the street.”

“Adam never asked God for Eve. God saw Adam fit for Eve.”

“Unexpressed emotions will never die. They are buried alive and they will come forth, later, in uglier ways.”

“Today I forgive myself. Not just once. Again, and again, and again. As many times as it takes to find peace.”

“Find a heart that will love you at your worst and arms that will hold you at your weakest.”