Summary : Under the bright lights of Paris, Lennor becomes a star. In the shadows behind the curtains, something watches her. Something not quite human.
TW : Angst. Anxiety. Stalking. Manipulation. A bit of NSFW (not with Armand sorry). Nudity. Fluff. My very bad attempt at capturing an Irish accent.
A/N: English is not my first language, so I apologize in advance for any spelling mistakes (especially toward the end. I didn’t have time to proofread properly, sorry. I just really wanted to post it). This took so long to write, you have no idea. More pieces are coming soon, including one with Young Daniel and another with Claudia. I hope you’ll enjoy this one!
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Au Théâtre Athénée. Les Velvet Jesters vous présentent leur nouvelle création :
Une revue burlesque et provocante, mêlant chansons et rires, flirtes et passion, chaleur et vérité. Mesdames, surveillez bien vos époux.
Avec comme rôle principal :
Lennor Sinclair, the Irish Sweetheart
Réservation aux guichets à l'entrée, ou dans toutes les billetteries agréées.
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And there she was. Right in the center of the poster. Her first real one. Properly printed, not hastily sketched by Deirdre. No garish, bleeding colors. No misspellings. Not that Lennor would have noticed. She still hadn’t learned French. She could thank Marcel, the theater manager, for helping her memorize her lines. She had the accent right at least.
She imagined the dress she is wearing in the illustration. A long, pale one, cinched at the waist with a light faux satin belt, perfectly embracing her full figure. The fabric flows smoothly over her round hips, highlighting the soft rolls of her belly, before flaring down to the floor. A daring neckline reveals just enough of her breasts to draw the eye. Nestled between them is a fake pearl necklace, crafted from the pearly stones of an old rosary she once stole. Yet, on the poster, it looks real, glittering under the soft golden lights. Her gaze lingers on her face. Eyes closed, blowing a kiss to the passersby bold enough to watch her. It’s irresistible. Lennor finds herself irresistible. It is the first time she has ever seen a generous silhouette displayed on a street poster. Let alone for a show held in one of Paris’s grandest theaters. Well, not quite as grand a venue as the troupe had hoped, but it’s a beginning. Their beginning.
«The Irish Sweetheart, huh? An’ here I tought I was the only one allowed ta call ye that...»
A presence. A broad torso pressed against her back. A masculine scent, strong, one he had chosen at a market two days after their arrival in Paris. A woody blend, cheap some might say, but one she liked enough to tolerate near her pillow. A quick kiss on her shoulder, before a chin came to rest there, strong arms wrapping around her waist. A strange display of love in a public space.
«Yer magnificent. Look at ye, Len. Me leadin’ lady. The star of Paris.»
The star of Paris. The Irish Sweetheart. But to him, she is only Lennor. Or Len, as he had always loved to call her. That name had been his first gift, long before France, long before the stage. A rainy night. A pub in Galway, not too crowded. Lennor had just celebrated her nineteenth birthday and decided to go out for a drink with the eldest of her younger sisters. One pint, maybe two, before heading home.
After a while, they walked in. A troupe, arms linked, stumbling into the room. Already half-drunk, knocking over a few chairs as they passed. Three men. Four women. Strangers. Irish, perhaps, but not from Galway. The accent of one rolled oddly on his tongue as he took his order at the bar. They spoke loudly, claimed space in the cramped little room. Lennor had looked up, first annoyed, then intrigued. Because among them, there was him. Taller than the rest, older than her, a worn coat slung over his shoulders, a smile playing at his lips as if he always carried a joke in his pocket. Blond curls clung to his forehead, and his pale green eyes seemed to be searching for something even amidst the chaos.
And then he saw her. Just a glance, a few seconds at most, before he turned back to his friends. Yet before he left for their table, following the group, he raised his glass in her direction. Lennor hadn’t known what to do. Her eyes fell, tracing the scratches in the wooden table, far too flustered at having been noticed. She, a plump young girl. Pretty, but plump. That’s what she’d been told often enough to start believing it. Her softness. What people noticed before even asking her name. But him. He did not look at the roundness of her body. His eyes landed squarely on her face, warm and deliberate. A stranger, and yet, in that second, he made her feel seen.
Lennor didn’t see him again that night. She left before she had the chance to cross his path once more, her sister close at her heels. Yet she couldn’t stop thinking about him, about his eyes and the quiet gentleness they held. That stranger. A man she was never meant to meet again. However, fate had other plans. Three days later, on a walk. Lennor wanted to clear her mind, to escape the constant noise echoing within her small house. He recognized her and this time, he did not let her slip away. He walked her home, speaking far more than she did, filling the silences with tales of stages and cities she had never seen. Patrick O’Carra, a young director from Dublin, barely twenty-five. His voice was deep, carrying without being heavy. She let herself drift with it, the words brushing her ears like the wind’s playful touch. A voice that demanded to be listened to, that inspired trust. A voice she felt she had always known.
One meeting became two, then many more. By the end of the year, he was no longer just the stranger with green eyes. He was her companion, her confidant, and most importantly her love. They married young, with little more than a borrowed suit and a ring he could barely afford. No grand speeches, just two hands clasped tight and a vow whispered in the half-light of a church in Galway.
And now, years later, Paris. The stage. The thunder of applause. And him, still looking at her as if nothing else had ever mattered.
«We’d have ta manage fillin’ the seats first, luv.»
Another kiss on her clothed shoulder, his cigarette-stained breath tickling her ear.
«Would ye stop worryin’? Yer bleedin’ perfect up there.»
She laughs softly, the sound caught between amusement and disbelief, before tilting her head against his chest. Her arms are folded across her body, pushing her breasts up, his words warming her in a way only he is capable of.
«If I’m perfect, it’s only ‘cause ye keep sayin’ it,» she responds, her tone low.
Paddy huffs a chuckle, pressing another kiss to her temple. «No, Len. It’s ‘cause it’s true. Me perfect girl.»
If he says so, it must be true, right? Lennor had never truly dreamed of glory when she chose to leave her small town to follow a man and his troupe. She doesn’t even know if this play will bring her any, even a sliver of it. Perhaps she is only meant to be a fleeting star, shining for just a brief moment before fading away more abruptly than she would wish. If that is the case, as long as Paddy stands by her side, it does not really matter. She will take whatever the audience is willing to give.
«Go on now. Curtain’s waitin’.» He pulls back, his hand lingering at the small of her back.
One last glance at the poster. One last glance at her own face upon it. At that girl. At herself, before following her husband inside the theatre. Two hours left. Only two hours.
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«Vous parlez comme un roi… mais vous bougez comme un pantin aux ficelles tirées par des doigts pleins de beurre.»
The audience bursts into laughter. Lennor isn’t even sure what she just said to Aiden, her partner on stage. The lights blind her a little, despite all the tests they ran before. A fine layer of sweat coats her skin, a few drops beading on her temples, thankfully hidden by her thick curls. She feels great, though. She’s in her element. The stage feels like hers. She moves across it with ease, her dress stirring the thin film of dust still clinging to the old boards.
Aiden follows up without missing a beat, his tone mockingly noble, his face painted in grotesque makeup. A white base, poorly spread and cracked in places. Lips painted a garish red that extends past his cupid’s bow. And a fake beauty mark, cut from a rough piece of fabric. Crude for the front rows, but perfectly convincing from the back of the room.
«Moi ? Aux mains pleines de beurre ?»
Grand gestures. A puffed-out chest. A grimacing face. A grotesque reaction that makes the audience laugh. And Lennor laughs too. Her character has to laugh. Loudly, head thrown back, hands clutching her chest, trapped inside a corset far too tight. She steps forward, light on her feet, as if dancing around Aiden. Her shoulders sway, following an imaginary rhythm that carries her next line.
Then, somewhere beneath her ribs, a small tremor. Not fear, not quite. Just a wrongness, a cold thread winding its way through her spine. She pretends to listen, waiting for the cue, that single word that will let her spring into the next part of her act. But she can't. Beyond the stage lights, something stirs her senses. She doesn’t know what, she doesn’t know where, but something feels off. Quiet, crawling. Her body knows it before her mind does. A sudden unease crawls beneath her skin, raising goosebumps. Shivers ripple through her, and her body feels cold, trembling. She throws quick glances toward the audience, but sees nothing. The light keeps her blind.
«Pourquoi aurais-je les mains pleines de beurre ?»
Aiden continues, focused on his own performance. He looks at his hands, turning them over quickly, confusion written across his face. His character doesn’t realize it’s an expression, and Aiden plays it to perfection. He brings them closer to the light, then shows them to the audience before stepping toward Lennor.
«Où est le beurre sur mes mains ?»
Lennor is supposed to answer, to proclaim the next line. The words get stuck in her tight throat. Her muscles tense. Her eyes flicker between Aiden and the audience before catching Paddy’s gaze in the wings. A small nod, trying to reassure her. You got this, he would have said, it’s only stage fright.
«Pas… Pas vos mains, voyons !» She pulls herself together, she has to. Her mind clearer now, her voice too. «Celles du ventriloque.»
«Le ventriloque ? Qu’est-ce que Paul a avoir avec mes mains remplies de beurre ?»
The feeling is still there, but her survival instinct takes over. The lines start flowing. This scene is meant to be lively, funny, even ridiculous. Lennor’s body begins to loosen, her movements growing more fluid. Just stage fright. It’s only stage fright.
After an hour and a half of performance, the theater empties quickly. Some head home. Others wait outside, hoping to meet the actors, choosing the words of praise they’ll say to them. Lennor stays alone on stage, sitting on the edge, her legs warmed by the still-glowing floor lights. She’s not really proud of herself, but more than anything, she doesn’t understand what happened. She doesn’t understand what unsettled her so deeply. Her skin still remembers the remnants of the shivers that ran through her an hour earlier. The loss of control over her own body, her own mind.
Footsteps behind her, heavy on the floorboards. She recognizes them. Paddy. He wouldn’t have left her alone. The rhythm of his walk. Slower as he reaches her, as if approaching a wounded animal. A dull sound. He’s just sat down behind her, probably cross-legged. His arm slips around her shoulders, a comforting warmth against her back.
«If ye’re upset about what happened on stage… 't only lasted half a second, Len. Sure no one noticed a' all.»
Lennor shakes her head, biting her lips. A nervous habit. «If no one noticed, then how come ye did?»
«’Cause I know ye, don’t I? An' I always know when somethin’ isn’t right with ye.»
He tilts his head, resting his chin on her shoulder. Even though she doesn’t look at him, her eyes still fixed on the empty theater, she knows there’s nothing but tenderness in his green eyes. Mistakes happen often, and Patrick knows that. He’s never blamed his actors. He prefers to be encouraging. You will do better next time, I am sure of it. He knows how to bring out the best in his troupe, and Lennor just feels like she didn’t do him justice this time.
« I ruined the scene.» Her shoulders slump, a sigh leaving her lips.
Paddy shakes his head, the short stubble on his chin brushing her skin. «No… what’re ye talkin’ about? Ye were perfect. Just how I imagined yer character.»
«Ye should say that to Aiden. He was perfect.»
A quiet laugh escapes him, and he presses a kiss to her cheek. «But he’s not me perfect girl, is he?»
Their eyes finally meet in silent understanding. And in the half-light of the stage, all the nerves, all the doubts, fade away. There is only the theater, the dust of the floorboards, and the two of them.
«Let’s grab somethin’ ta eat,» he murmurs against her ear. «Then we’ll go home, and I’ll take care of ye. Me perfect girl.»
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Moans of pleasure fill the room, blending with the soft creak of the bed. Lennor moves her hips slowly above his, Paddy’s large hands resting on her thighs, fingers pressing into her skin. He lets her move. He lets her take pleasure with his body. And takes his own through hers. His lips find her neck, his teeth grazing her skin. Her hands explore his muscular body, one tangled in his hair, keeping his face close, the other tracing his spine, fingertips brushing along his back. It feels intimate. It feels good. To let her body relax. To let the fear fade away.
Paddy lets his hips meet hers, setting a new rhythm. Faster, yet just as languid. His mouth travels down, from her neck to her collarbones, before finding one of her breasts. Lennor’s lips part, releasing trembling sighs. Barely words, barely sounds. Her hand tightens in his hair, her forehead falling against the top of his head, her eyes fluttering closed.
But instead of the darkness she expects, she sees them. Two amber orbs, golden light bleeding into her mind. Two orbs without a face. They’re alive. They follow her. She can almost sense something behind them. Not anger, but something unspeakable. Ancient. And worst of all, they stare at her without wavering, like a predator watching its prey. Lennor can only open her eyes. The soft light from the bedside table floods her pupils, but her body remains tense. It’s the same feeling she had on stage. The same shiver running through her spine.
Her eyes drift toward the window. It isn’t a conscious movement, just a slow, imperceptible pull. Lennor feels drawn to it, like something is calling her. All her senses blur, her sensations fade. Her body no longer seems entirely her own. She’s still there, physically but her mind is searching for something, for answers. Paddy feels it too. The way her body tenses in his arms, the way she tightens around his cock, breath faltering. His hips slow down instinctively. His mouth leaves her nipple. He looks up at her, confused, brows furrowing. He follows her gaze, trying to see what she’s looking at beyond the window. But there’s nothing. He sees nothing. Hears nothing. Absolutely nothing.
His voice is soft, as if he’s afraid to startle her. His fingers find her chin, gently turning her face toward him. Her glassy eyes meet his. Those beautiful eyes, all lost in his own.
Lennor shakes her head, her gaze more alive now, but wetter, shimmering with tears. She tries to look away again, back toward the window, trying to pierce through the darkness, to see beyond what the streetlight allows. She feels it. It’s here.
«Come on Len, talk ta me.»
His voice is only a whisper, quiet but warm in her ear. Paddy doesn’t let go of her chin. Instead, his thumb strokes her skin, slow and reassuring. He knows her well enough to understand this is what she needs right now.
«Do ye wish ta stay like this ?»
Like this. Him still inside her. Her in his strong arms. Lennor nods, resting her head against his chest, shoulders slumping, the top of her head pressed beneath his chin. The dampness of his skin seeps onto her cheek, not pleasant, not really, but the embrace is. Warm, wrapped in the faint scent of sweat.
«There’s somethin' watchin' me out there,» she murmurs. « I don’t know what it is, but it follows me, Paddy.»
«What are ye talkin' about? What d' ye mean by somethin'?»
What does she even mean by something ? She doesn’t know. Shouldn’t she have said someone ? That would make more sense. How can she feel followed by a thing? And yet Lennor is sure of it. It’s not human. It doesn’t feel human. That presence she senses while being on stage. That heavy gaze pressing against her while she rides her husband. Nothing but invasive. Nothing but voracious. As if it exists outside of time itself.
«Wait… is that thin’ out there right now?»
Her back hits the mattress as Paddy pulls out of her, leaving her empty and wet between her thighs. He gets out of bed, the blanket sliding to the floor in his haste. It’s so cold without him, even after only a few seconds.
His long fingers grab the curtain and pull it further aside, the metal rings scraping against the wooden rod. He squints into the night, lips slightly parted, standing completely naked in front of the window.
«Patrick, people can see ye from the street.»
He laughs, a short, nervous chuckle before his face turns serious again. «If ye’ve got a stalker, better let him see who he’s dealin' with.»
«Ye, cock out in front of our bedroom window?»
Lennor shakes her head, running her hands over her face. A nervous laugh escapes her despite herself. The chill returns to her skin and so does the fear. The situation unnerves her, as much as Paddy’s sudden behavior does.
After one last glance outside, scanning both sides of the street, he closes the curtain and turns back to her. His steps are heavy on the floorboards. He exhales, another shaky laugh slipping from his lips, almost like hers.
The mattress dips under his weight as he sits at the edge of the bed. Lennor wraps her arms around herself without realizing it. A defensive, instinctive gesture. He doesn’t try to move them. Not yet. His fingers barely touch her skin, tracing a faint line along her arm, featherlight.
«Is that why ye were so distressed on stage earlier?»
His fingers trail slowly up to her neck, sliding into her hair, still damp with sweat. He isn’t trying to possess her. Just to remind her: I’m here. And he is. She’s safe with him. She doesn’t answer. She only shifts, pushing against the mattress with her feet to crawl closer, rolling onto her stomach until her cheek rests on his bare thigh, her face turned toward the window.
«I feel like I am crazy.»
Paddy says nothing at first. His fingers move slowly through her hair, parting it with a meditative tenderness. The gesture is simple, but it grounds her.
«Ye’re not crazy, Len. Whatever it is, I’ll handle it.»
His voice is low, a whisper that brushes against her skin. He keeps touching her, combing through her hair with his fingers, tracing the curve of her ear, down her temple, as if drawing an invisible boundary between her and what she fears outside. She closes her eyes. No more amber eyes watching her. Only darkness. Her breathing slows at last. The weight on her chest lifts, just a little. One arm wraps around his leg, just tight enough to feel the warmth of his skin against hers. A comforting warmth. He’ll handle it, he said. Paddy will handle it.
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Second week of performances. Longer than they had ever dared to hope. The play is a success. Glowing reviews appear in the Parisian papers. A revolutionary play, in every sense of the word. Patrick buys everyday newspapers that mentions them. Marcel translates the reviews, and Lennor carefully keeps the clippings in a little box. Sometimes, she reads them at night, when Patrick has already fallen asleep beside her. She can recognize a few words now, but her eyes always return to one thing. Her name. Lennor Sinclair. Paris knows her name. She feels like a star. A real star.
Yet even in this sudden light, something darker lingers. The unease that first gripped her on stage hasn’t left since. It clings to her like the smell of smoke after a fire. She feels it in the quiet moments, between applause and sleep, in the stillness after she closes her eyes. Sometimes, she catches herself searching the corners of her room, the shadows between faces in the crowd, certain that something is watching. No one else seems to notice. Not even Paddy, despite his efforts to understand what Lennor feels. It’s a constant presence, almost a part of herself.
The theatre was packed again tonight. Hundreds of people, all applauding, all watching. Some of them had been there before. Lennor recognized their faces as they came forward after the show, offering congratulations. Her French isn’t good, their English is even worse. Compliments tumble in a jumble of words she barely understands. Still, she smiles, nods, and plays along.
Bouquets of roses pile in her arms, heavier with each handful. Her muscles ache, her back stiff, but she keeps holding them. All she wants is to go home, sink into a hot bath, and sleep before doing it all again tomorrow. Just one more week, then Paddy will have to talk with Marcel about scheduling the next performance. «That’ll depend on the audience,» he had reminded them. «Paris loves novelty. Write me a new play, and we’ll see if it makes the program.»
A few more people approach, new faces this time. A few more roses, that even the audience doesn’t know where to place in her already overflowing arms. Paddy stands farther away, chatting with the rest of the troupe, letting the star bask in her moment. Lennor had enjoyed it at first. Now, she only wants to leave.
«So, this is the star everyone in Paris can’t stop talking about.»
A voice behind her. Perfect English, with the faintest hint of an accent. She turns, still weighed down by the roses. The figure that greets her is new. Skin like warm amber. Dark curls peeking from beneath a grey hat. Well-dressed, movements fluid, almost unnervingly elegant. There’s something about his posture, a poised refinement that catches her off guard. Her eyes study him, curious but cautious, tracing the line of his shoulders, the tilt of his head. She can almost feel the weight of his gaze before it lands on her. He looks young, yet there’s something about him, something ancient.
«I almost detect a hint of sarcasm in yer voice,» she replies, careful not to move, still clutching the flowers. Her heart beats faster, a faint flutter of tension in her chest. Why is her body reacting like that?
He smiles, faintly. The kind of smile that doesn’t quite reach the eyes. «Not sarcasm,» he says. «Admiration, perhaps. Though I must admit, I expected someone taller.»
Lennor laughs politely, the sound feels a bit strange in her own throat. «And yet here I am.»
«Indeed.» He steps closer, just a few steps. His gaze lingers, unhurried, studying her face as if trying to place a memory. «You were extraordinary tonight. The way you held the stage… it’s rare. You make people forget to breathe.»
«That’s kind of ye.» Lennor tightens her grip on the flowers, shifting them to keep them from falling. In a way, she’s grateful that her new admirer didn’t bring yet another rose. Her arms feel like they’re about to detach from her body. And none of her troupe offered to help. A bit rude. «I’m sorry, I didn’t catch yer name.»
«That’s because I didn’t give it.» A smile appears again on his lips, pinched delicately together. More genuine than the last one. «But you may call me Armand. I run a theatre troupe as well.»
«Really? Her' in Paris?» Lennor sounds more animated now, less guarded. Less tired too, as if her body finally found a chance to let go of the useless tension. A warm sensation runs through her veins, coloring her cheeks. She takes a step forward, and their eyes meet.
«Not far from here, maybe a ten-minute walk.»
«So ye’ve come to watch the 'competition, then?» A playful tease. A grin on her lips, Lennor shifts the flowers again in her arms.
Armand smiles, shaking his head slightly. Something shifts in his demeanor as well. His posture loosens, becomes more casual.
«Just to see why my audience seems to be dwindling by the day,» he replies.
«Well, I’m sorry to hear that.»
«Don’t be. The success is more than deserved.»
Caught up in the conversation, Lennor doesn’t hear Paddy approach. A hand slips to her hip, squeezing her gently through the fabric of her long dress. A wordless warning. He’s always been attentive.
«Here. Let me take those, Len.»
Relief washes over her. He takes half of the roses from her arms, grimacing at their weight, muttering a low “it’s heavy” under his breath. She giggles, nose scrunched, teeth bared in a wide grin. A smile just for him.
Armand watches the scene, detached. A couple, perfectly in tune even in something as simple as passing off flowers. And yet, Lennor’s eyes shine as if he’s just performed the most romantic act imaginable. Those roses will probably end up in the trash in a few hours anyway.
With a few more roses now transferred to her husband’s arms, Lennor relaxes her stiffness, her numb muscles, her tense shoulders. She rolls her neck, side to side, back and forth. Eyes closed to savor the feeling of weightlessness before opening them again.
«Oh right… Paddy, dis is Armand. He runs a troupe here in Paris.»
«A fellow artist. It’s a pleasure to meet ye » Paddy notes, his voice bright and warm. He loves meeting others who share his passion for theater. Despite the burden of the roses, he manages to free one hand and offers it to Armand, who takes it.
«You should come and see the play. Saturday. Next week, how does that sound.»
«Why not, it’ll be a night out. It’s been too long since we’ve gone anywhere together.» That spark lights up her face again, a soft smile lifting her lips. Her cheeks flush a warm pink, and her eyes crinkle at the edges.
«Why not,» Paddy echoes, seeming to like the idea.
«Here.» Armand reaches into the pocket of his shirt. A card. He hands it to Lennor, careful not to let their fingers touch. It’s nothing but an address. Presumably the theatre’s. No establishment name. No title of the play. Just an address, written in black ink on paper that looks far too refined for such a simple purpose.
«I hope to see you there.» One last look before he straightens his hat, tipping it just so, then turns on his heel with a barely audible «à bientôt».
«He seems nice,» Paddy concludes once Armand is out of sight.
«Probably a joke. And is he really wrong?» The young man teases, a spark in his green eyes as he looks down at her.
«Well, I am taller than every Parisian woman we’ve met. So aye, he is wrong. And if ye think the same, ye are wrong too.» Lennor fires back, narrowing her eyes in mock severity.
«Ye’re wearin' heels, sweetheart.»
She rolls her eyes. «They’re wearin' heels too. And I’m still taller.»
Paddy chuckles, watching her with that soft, amused look he always gets when she’s being stubborn. He shifts the roses to one arm and reaches out to brush the back of his fingers against her cheek.
«Aside from that little detail, he seems fine. It’s thoughtful of him ta invite us to 'is show.»
«It is. But 'is card is odd. There’s no name. No title. Nothin'.» She turns the small card over in her hand, frowning as if it’ll reveal more if she stares long enough.
«Maybe he can’t afford more. Our cards were simple at the beginnin' too, ye weren’t even with us yet. And who knows how long they’ve been performin' here. They might be just startin" out.»
«Maybe.» Her shoulders rise and fall in a half-hearted shrug before she lets out a long breath. She swings the card lightly between her fingers, then tucks it into the bodice of her dress. «Now, is it possible ta go home? I’m tired of carryin' these flowers.»
He laughs, lifting the bouquets as if to toast the night.
«As ye wish, ma grande star de Paris.» He says with a bow, before they turn toward the exit. He offers her his free arm, and she loops hers through it with a small but weary smile.
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Lennor stands alone in front of the theatre. Paddy hadn’t been able to come with her. He had to present some potential new ideas to Marcel, hoping to extend the troupe’s stay in Paris. She had considered staying with him, as his partner, having helped write some of the plays. But her husband had convinced her to go. That Armand seemed interested in your work, he’d said, rummaging through their cluttered desk in search of his notebooks. Go make some new friends, Len.
And there she is. Facing the new autumn evening breeze, her long coat draped over her shoulders, her neck hidden beneath synthetic fur. Cold light spills from a few flickering neon signs. A luminous front, striking against the darkness. There's a certain energy to this place, despite its location. The theatre sits at the very end of the street, tucked away, and Lennor is surprised to see so many people gathered for a venue this secluded. Ten minutes of walking, yes, but ten to find it at all. Le Théâtre des Vampires. That's what she reads on the facade as she approaches. She smiles at such a name. A bit kitschy for this city. Her footsteps echo in the street, her heels striking the stone pavement, occasionally sinking into the gaps wet from the rain.
Tightening her coat around her body, she makes her way to the ticket booth, a few coins she'd prepared in her pocket for her ticket. As she gets closer, the ticket seller comes into view. A vampire with an artificially pale complexion, painted with white makeup. His eyes are emphasized with black eyeliner, and fake fangs fill his mouth. The caricature is fully committed, and Lennor can't help but smile at such effort. A smile that slowly fades as she meets the vampire's gaze. Indifferent. Cold.
«Un ticket, s'il vous plait.» Her accent rolls more naturally now, smoother on her tongue than when she first arrived. She speaks French with more ease, despite not understanding everything.
The seller tears a ticket from the roll and slides it across the wooden counter, pushing it toward her hand.
«Balcon sud… non, c'est gratuit pour vous.»
The coins she’d taken out clatter onto the wood before he finishes speaking. Lennor stops her hand mid-motion, one or two coins still resting against her palm.
«Ordre du boss. Maintenant, allez-y. Vous n’êtes pas la seule dans la file.»
Free. An order from Armand? After one last glance and a faint smile, despite the ticket seller’s tone, she leaves the line, the coins slipping back into her pocket, and slips through the entrance. Warm air hits her skin, and she can’t help but remove her coat, draping it over her arm. Ticket in hand, she follows the signs. Arrows, panels. She walks through narrow hallways, passing what she assumes are the actors. Their makeup is the same as the one at the entrance. The same way of staring at her.
She reaches a curtain. Thick, a deep red, much like a stage curtain. With a sweep of her hand, she pulls it aside and steps onto the balcony, relieved to have found her destination. Bathed in a gentle atmosphere, the balcony isn’t very large. A row of benches, as red as the curtain. A simple balcony, like this theatre.
«Delighted to see you decided to join us.»
Lennor turns. It’s their second interaction, and once again, Armand has appeared behind her, making her jump.
«Well, how could I refuse, especially when I’m receive'd so graciously.» She smiles, a nervous little laugh slipping from her lips. «The free seat wasn’t necessary, I had enough ta pay.»
Lennor extends her hand toward him, and he takes it, bringing it to his lips for a quick kiss. A shiver runs along her skin, stirred by the cold. He is cold. Paddy hadn’t told her just how cold. But more than anything, his eyes don’t leave hers as his lips brush her skin.
«Not at all. You are our guest, and our guests do not pay.»
He leads her to the bench, showing her where she’ll be spending the next two hours. She knows nothing about the show she’s about to watch. He didn’t explain anything, and Lennor didn’t bother to ask. She likes surprises and given the crowd at the entrance, she expects it to be a good one.
«Oh, hum... me husband apologizes for 'is absence. He has some matters ta handle regardin’ the theater.»
«You’re here, that’s what matters.»
He settles beside her, close enough that she can feel the chill that seems to cling to him. The theater hums with muted anticipation. Lennor can almost hear the murmur of the audience below. She leans forward slightly, observing. The room is packed, and she can’t suppress the thought that crawls into her mind: if this place is full, it’s because her own show is no longer on the program, at least for now. Armand shifts beside her, crossing one leg over the other and clearing his throat to draw her attention. Heat rises in her cheeks. She shouldn’t be having such arrogant thoughts.
«It will start soon,» he says, his voice smooth, almost whispered. She turns to him, nodding her head, his profile carved by the glow of the stage sconces. There’s a gentleness in his expression, yet something unreadable. She lets her eyes wander over his face, an unexpected softness emerging despite the sharpness of his features. A strong nose and brows on a boyish face.
«It’s been a while since I’ve watched a performance.» Lennor breaks the silence, her voice dropping closer to a whisper, as she hears the audience begin to quiet below. «I’ve grown so used ta bein’ the one performin'.»
Armand inclines his head slightly, absorbing her words. «I see… and yet, you watch like someone who knows every move, every breath. It makes the experience… different.»
«More alive,» he murmurs, the corner of his lips twitching in a faint smile. «Because you see what is true and what is hidden.»
«Ye think too much of me already, me friend…»
The lights dim further, flickering, capturing Lennor’s attention. She glances around, amused by the atmosphere the theater imposes. But her amusement fades with the first notes of the orchestra. A carefully orchestrated cacophony, less brilliant than she expected but equally unsettling. Brass blares against recorded screams, male and female.
Lennor feels a familiar shiver creep along her spine, half thrill, half unease. And in that precise moment, she can’t help but think of the amber eyes she saw when her own eyelids had closed, that inescapable feeling of being watched. She shifts slightly on the bench, those familiar shivers coursing through her body. Goosebumps rise on her arms. Her muscles tense.
The light settles on the stage, blinding her for a moment before revealing a man standing with his back to a crimson curtain. His back draped in a long black cloak, a stark contrast with his white hair. He stands upright, facing the now silent audience, every gaze fixed on him. Lennor holds her breath, a single bead of sweat slides down her temple.
«Welcome !» he announces, his voice deep, shadowed in its own darkness. «To the displacement of reason. And the excretion of pathetic desires.»
His pauses are punctuated by gestures, arms opening one after the other to reveal the red lining of his cloak.
«Good evening !» Some of the first-row audience members reply.
Lennor can’t look away. A presence rarely seen in an actor. The stage belongs to him, as does the audience’s attention. More gestures follow before he hisses like a cat, revealing fangs instead of canines. That feeling of unease fades. She is enthralled, captivated by this presence. A harness descends from the ceiling. He grasps it, slowly lifting from the ground, his cloak unfolding like wings over the audience.
«What you about to see … is, for you, an outrage that masks a birth and a rebirth of what is …»
«Who is dat ?» Lennor asks Armand quickly, leaning so he can hear. «He is incredible, really.»
«Santiago,» he replies, «our finest actor.»
Santiago continues his ascent, suspended in the dimming light as the music shifts, strings humming with tension, an almost sacred reverence. The harness twirls him slowly, and from above he gazes down upon the audience, eyes dark and glittering. His smile is sharp, poetic in his own way.
«… a rebirth of what is feared, forgotten, and desired.»
His voice echoes as though coming from everywhere at once. From below, veiled figures materialize onstage. Dancers draped in black, their movements serpentine, mirroring each other in choreographed chaos. A ritual is underway. Lennor feels her pulse quicken. A central figure seems to represent Death, with a grayish face, hooded, holding a small pitchfork. Shadows in full light. A macabre introduction to what awaits them next. The orchestra plays a new tune, far more cheerful than the screams that greeted them. Flutes replace the brass. A tambourine replaces the bass drum. Death is joyful, and Lennor doesn't quite understand where this play is trying to lead her. A happy Death dancing to the sound of flutes?
As if sensing her turmoil, Armand leans toward her, his breath brushing her neck, a hand resting on the back of her bench. «Patience, it has barely begun.»
«Maybe I should have read the program,» she murmurs back, her shoulders slumping.
«And spoil the surprise?»
«Is it worth it?» Lennor smiles.
«You will see, my dear...»
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The music rises through the room, making the wood of the balcony tremble. Lennor’s legs ache now, unsure how to sit to avoid the numbness creeping up to her hips. She has been entertained. She has laughed, but she’s growing tired. The vignettes follow one another, Death always at the center, encountering poor victims unlucky enough to be chosen. An old man, and now a little girl awkwardly played by a grown woman. The music punctuates the pauses, never allowing minds to rest. More brass. More flutes.
Not wishing to offend her host, she remains attentive, her eyes never once leaving the stage. She watches. She watches, even when she feels Armand’s heavy gaze on her profile, as though he’s trying to understand her, even perceive her thoughts. He can try, she thinks.
«But why take her? She’s only eight?»
The mother of the little victim begs Death, on her knees, clutching at the long cape with small hands. Her voice is plaintive, accusatory in a way. She seems to offer herself instead, but Death remains unmoved. Or at least, that’s what Lennor believes she understands.
«It is not she whom I wish to take with me.» A growl, deep from the throat.
The orchestra swells once again, the cacophony rising in layers, but Lennor barely hears it. She finally looks away, her attention caught by the play of lights. Those lights again, flickering like old bulbs badly wired, before cutting out all at once. Lennor gasps. Armand shifts beside her, his body seeming to inch closer, their thighs touching. One spotlight, sickly and abrupt, snaps on, centered on the stage.
Something. Someone stands there.
A woman. Barefoot, in a pale dress, thin, dirty at the hems, clinging to her body like the mist. Trembling, she shields herself with her arms, trying perhaps to hide her breasts through the translucent fabric. What strikes Lennor most is her face, or at least her expression. A distant gaze, beneath a heavy fringe. An angel with black hair. The audience murmurs, restless. The atmosphere shifts again. Much darker. Far more macabre.
Lennor leans forward, eyes narrowed. «That’s… a new character,» she whispers, her voice more hesitant than curious. Armand shifts again, nodding, watching her carefully.
Onstage, the flutes resume their cheerful melody. Violins join, playful. But the woman’s trembling stands in brutal contrast to the music’s lightness. Death approaches the angel and seizes her by the chin, forcing her to look up.
Lennor feels her pulse quicken, unease skittering through her veins once again. Her brow furrows. Her hands rise to her mouth. The stage holds its breath.
Death draws the trembling woman to the center, the rest of the cast melting back into shadow. The music shifts once more. The flutes soften, replaced by a low hum rolling through the bass strings. The audience is silent.
Hungry for the next grotesque delight.
The woman’s eyes change. Wide, unfocused. She is terrified, her mouth frozen in a silent, pleading grimace. Lennor is certain she can see tears sliding down her cheeks. An angel with sad eyes. What an actress.
Death turns, presenting the woman as though unveiling a treasure, her bare feet stark under the harsh light. Moving behind her, with a simple gesture, Death sweeps her long black hair aside, baring her neck. A ritualistic motion, repeated, practiced. Slow. Languid. Hypnotic enough to steal the breath from its spectator. Lennor’s hand tightens around the balcony rail, her knuckles whitening with anticipation. And then, in a flash, teeth sink into her throat. There is no theatrical arc of fake blood. No time for drama. A wet sound fills the theater. A visceral, tearing sound. The woman jerks, her mouth opening in a silent scream. Someone in the audience gasps. Another laughs nervously. And Lennor can only watch, mouth agape, eyes wide, staring at the bloody spectacle. Thick blood spills down the white dress, bright and horrifying. The smell reaches her, sharp and metallic. She recoils against the back of the banquette, her features twisting in disgust.
«Oh… me God,» she whispers, barely audible. Her stomach churns, tightening as if clenched in an invisible fist.
Armand doesn’t look at the stage. He looks at her. The young woman beside him. At her stunned expression as the young victim collapses onto the stage, motionless. A few spasms, then nothing. Is she dead? Has the angel with the sad eyes succumbed to Death’s kiss? Her long black hair spills over her face. Her arms once again shield the transparency of the nightgown that would otherwise reveal her chest.
The theater plunges into darkness.
Whispers ripple through the crowd, growing louder, until the audience erupts into thunderous applause Lennor cannot bring herself to follow. Her ears ring beneath the weight of it. Her body feels heavy against the faux velvet. Her muscles are locked in place.
Her blood runs cold. And then, after a few shallow breaths, she claps.
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She can’t stop talking, her voice breaking the silence of the night as they walk through the streets of Paris. Barely ten minutes on foot before reaching her small apartment on the outskirts. Lennor had managed the walk there on her own, she would have managed just as well on the way back. But Armand had insisted on escorting her.
«One can never know what might happen in ten minutes, my dear. The shadows are voracious here.»
And even though Lennor had initially declined, she now has to admit she’s rather grateful to have him at her side. She’s curious. And she’s part of the trade. She has so many questions after what she witnessed. Her steps are quick against the cobblestones. Uneven, almost graceless. She walks like an excited child, her gestures punctuating her words, nearly stumbling as her heels catch between the stones.
«Oh, and the blood? How did ye make it look so realistic?»
She doesn’t even give him time to answer. Words spill from her mouth, as if she’s afraid she might forget even the most insignificant question. Nothing is insignificant to her. She wants to know everything.
Armand walks at her side, one hand tucked into the pocket of his long camel coat, the other lifting a cigarette to his lips now and then. An amused smile rests on his thin mouth, holding back each answer he could give her. From afar, one might mistake them for two friends in animated conversation, perhaps even intimate lovers.
«I almost forgot the fangs, Armand! The fangs… he hissed like a cat. How did ye manage dat too?»
«From the sheer number of your questions,» he says, «I can only conclude that you enjoyed it.» He switches sides, moving to her right to avoid the couple approaching them. She nods, the soft chill brushing against her round cheeks.
«I think I would enjoy it even more if ye explained how ye achieved those effects.» She smiles, a teasing lilt in her voice.
«Those are our secrets,» he replies, taking a drag from his cigarette.
The woman scoffs, a short laugh slipping past her lips. «Oh… secrets. What are ye afraid of, Armand? I believe ye’re the only troupe in all of Paris puttin' on vampire shows. What’s next? Werewolves with synthetic fur? Or perhaps leprechauns? You’ll probably need me help for that one.»
«Even if your leprechaun idea sounds like a guaranteed success,» he replies evenly, «these effects are our own creations, designed specifically for our theatre. I doubt they could be replicated anywhere else.»
Lennor’s shoulders slump, a mock pout forming on her face. She’s enjoying his company. She had been apprehensive about going to the theatre alone, without Paddy by her side. She had even considered turning back, her apartment still in sight, her steps slow on the pavement. Go make some friends, Len. Her husband’s words had echoed in her mind then, and she had decided to go through with it. She hadn’t wanted to disappoint Paddy. And she has to admit, she isn’t disappointed either. A middling play and an incredible end, one that left her speechless, but above all, the prospect of a new friend, outside her own troupe. A breath of fresh air, like the November chill that tinges her nose pink.
It’s her turn to switch sides, reclaiming her place at his right. The main streets are unusually crowded tonight, despite the hour. Not that it’s particularly late, but don’t Parisians work on Friday mornings?
«What a shame. And here I was, so eager to plagiarize ye…» Her shoulder bumps into his in a playful nudge. Armand doesn’t seem to mind.
«Some things, yes. Others, not so much. But the endin'…» She pauses. «Who was the actress playin' the victim? Ye seem to have a gift for findin' them.»
That polite smile again, gracing his thin lips.
«An understudy,» he replies. «The original actress will return the day after tomorrow.»
Lennor nods and doesn’t press the matter further. A pedestrian crossing. A car slows and stops to let them pass. A dark street follows, its lamppost working only every other night. Tonight, it doesn’t. She feels even more grateful to have Armand at her side as they brave the darkness.
A few more steps, another crossing. This time they walk across an empty road before reaching her building. A slightly shabby place, but it was one of the cheapest and one of the closest to the city center. A reasonable rent for their modest actors’ wages. Lennor had wanted privacy, unwilling to lodge at the Théâtre Athénée with the rest of the troupe. She loves them, truly. She became part of that large, close-knit family the moment Paddy set his sights on her, in that pub in Galway. She hadn’t known it then, but they had all understood right away. Patrick had been smitten with the beautiful young woman the instant their eyes met. They welcomed her as if she had always belonged. Journey after journey. Theatre after theatre. Always together. But for once, Lennor wanted a place just for herself and her husband. To live like a real couple. To reunite in the evenings after work. To eat dinner at a table, a meal she had cooked herself. To get ready for the night in the same bathroom. To make love in their own bed, without worrying about anyone overhearing them.
«I live dere… the second window on the top floor,» she says, pointing up at her apartment.
She nods, her nose buried in the raised collar of her coat.Paris is a beautiful city. Alive, especially at night. A little like her. «But I must admit, I’m already longin' to go home.»
«In Ireland» , Armand adds, giving a slight nod, as if he understands how she feels.
The green island. That sense of belonging, no matter where you set foot. The warmth despite the rain. The smiles, the laughter, the language. A culture being reborn, a people striving to reclaim it since their recent independence. It had been hard for the troupe to leave Ireland, to leave that newly liberated environment. To have to speak English again after finding their way back to Gaelic. But the pull of opportunity had been stronger. Their return home would only be all the sweeter.
«You don’t seem like you’ll ever feel at home anywhere else» , he says, flicking his cigarette butt to the ground. He takes a step back, maybe two, quietly signaling that he’s about to leave.
Just before she can add anything else, the building’s front door opens, revealing Paddy. His shirt is unbuttoned, a white tank top visible beneath. His blond hair is tousled, a loose strand falling over the bridge of his nose. A wide smile spreads across his face as he approaches his wife. His strong arm finds her waist, pulling her against him as he presses a kiss to the crown of her head.
«How was yer evening?» He asks, his soft voice teasing her ear.
«Good. I’ll tell ye once we’re home, along with the little secrets I managed to pry out of our friend here.»
Lennor doesn’t see Armand’s gaze darken. His jaw tightens. It’s subtle, almost imperceptible, even to himself. A man so firmly in control. His eyes are fixed on him. Her husband. Those wide, admiring eyes again, almost fascinated by the man holding her in his arms. A man. A simple man. And yet, he is the one she loves.
«Thank ye for bringin' her back. I truly appreciate it.»
He extends his free hand toward Armand, waiting for him to take it. A gesture of gratitude for returning his wife safe and sound. Paddy doesn’t like it when Lennor comes home alone at night. Ireland had been safe, they knew their country. Paris, however, is still largely unknown to them.
Armand studies the outstretched hand, tilting his head slightly to the side. Once again, the gesture is subtle, but this time, it doesn’t escape Lennor’s notice. He seems to hesitate before finally grasping it, giving it a few firm shakes.
«My pleasure.» His smile doesn’t reach his eyes.
And then, silence. Brief, but heavy. Paris hums in the distance. The two men hold each other’s gaze. Brown eyes sinking into green. Lennor feels Paddy’s arm tighten around her waist, his body suddenly stiff beside her. A fresh shiver runs along her arms. Her legs prickle, to the point that her eyes wander, searching the darkness for something. Anything. The same unease. The same feeling of being watched. A sensation far closer than before. Lennor shifts her weight, clutching her coat tighter around herself.
«Thank ye for the invitation, Armand.» She hesitates, then adds more softly, «For the show.»
A smile curves his lips. That same measured smile again, neither quite kind nor unkind.
«I’m pleased it left an impression.» He tips his hat, an old-fashioned gesture that feels entirely deliberate.«Have a good night.»
He turns away then, already retreating into the shadows of the street. They watch him go until his silhouette dissolves into the darkness, swallowed by the city as though he had never been there at all, leaving the couple alone, unsettled by what they’ve just felt. She knows Paddy felt it too.
«Come on, Len. Ye’ll catch a cold.»
He tugs her along, turning toward their apartment. She casts one last glance at the dark street where Armand disappeared. What she feels in that moment. What she has felt since arriving in this city doesn’t leave her. Paris has let something into her life, something she doesn’t understand, may never understand, and something that will likely never leave her. All she can do is allow herself to be pulled inside and close the door behind her.