online notebook??

don’t you know how to make a poor (literally) boy’s heart swing?

[TXT] if you were anyone else, i’d probably lie and say yes[TXT] but you’re daniel, and i like you. so i’ll be honest[TXT] not at all.[TXT] i had forgotten about the whole thing for a minute[TXT] but now that i’m reminded of it i can’t even focus on anything. i keep worrying about, like.. how am i going to pay for my phone? how am i going to go anywhere? what about all my stuff back home? where am i even going to stay?[TXT] it’s a lot. 

[TXT] talking to you makes me feel better. kind of? i mean, at least kind of better. [TXT] but thank you. really. i really just want to forget it again for a few minutes. [TXT] not really. my whole towns pretty much just like my parents. it’s not a jump to say that i’m pretty much excommunicated from there. there might be a few people who don’t hate me, but that’s it.

[TXT] i wish she was.[TXT] i had even forgot that had happened through lots of mental erasure. putting it off until break came. was questioning what my secret even was.[TXT] but nope.[TXT] thank, may.[TXT] on the bright side: they’re out of my lives now.

[TXT] trash [TXT] in their eyes it’s probably the opposite. they never liked me too much. more like toleration. preferred my brother and sister over me. [TXT] but i can’t see how my life can get much worse, so i’m sure it’ll get better.

[TXT] what?[TXT] no, disown means to like.. cut ties with it.[TXT] like if you disown a dog, you no longer own it.[TXT] and no, i didn’t lose anything. at least, i don’t think so?[TXT] did you find a paper with my name on it or something?

[TXT] that’s my secret??? [TXT] shit, i was wandering what she had on me [TXT] do you plan on.. releasing it?

[TXT] what?[TXT] no, disown means to like.. cut ties with it.[TXT] like if you disown a dog, you no longer own it.[TXT] and no, i didn’t lose anything. at least, i don’t think so?[TXT] did you find a paper with my name on it or something?

[TXT] wait what [TXT] how do you even know about that?

[TXT] Keep yourself safe. Out me.[TXT] Please. I don’t want you getting caught up in this fuckery.[TXT] I will be okay. I Swear.

[TXT] that’s the spirit! [TXT] haha, thank you. i just try to be a decent human being. [TXT] i really don’t have a single clue what my secret is, but i agree? don’t really have anything i’ve done bad or something i’d really keep a secret considering karma already outed me so.... y’know. shrug, i guess.

[TXT] Keep yourself safe. Out me.[TXT] Please. I don’t want you getting caught up in this fuckery.[TXT] I will be okay. I Swear.

[TXT] are you okay?[TXT] is someone dying?[TXT] do i need to call the cops? ambulance? news station?

[TXT] ava [TXT] ava no [TXT] you take those ellipses back [TXT] do not get your date drunk [TXT] how are you even buying alcohol you’re underage

[TXT] are you okay?[TXT] is someone dying?[TXT] do i need to call the cops? ambulance? news station?

[TXT] damn madam flava ava didn’t predict that for herself now did she [TXT] okay i’m not [TXT] Q: Why is the hockey rink hot after the game? A: Because all the fans have left.  [TXT] Q: Why are comedians so good at playing forward? A: They’re always prepared with a hockey shtick  [TXT] Q: What can you catch from scared hockey players? A: Chicken pucks.  [TXT] Q: What award does the best Chinese hockey team win at the end of the season? A: The Bruce-Lee Cup.  [TXT]  Q: How do hockey players stay cool? A: By sitting next to the fans. 

[TXT] are you okay?[TXT] is someone dying?[TXT] do i need to call the cops? ambulance? news station?

[TEXT]:: I am going to assume that you were hella drunk when you sent this? [TEXT]:: Just guessing

[TXT] definitely a good trait. [TXT] out of like, the tons of other good traits you have. [TXT] actually feeling better, headaches gone fully and only a little bit sluggish. [TXT] slept all day though. so, uh. not getting any sleep tonight, i guess? that’s going to be fun. not too sure how i’m going to preoccupy my time, though. [TXT] also, wait. you’ve never been drunk? [TXT] or just somehow have a magical gene that lets you avoid getting hangovers?

[TEXT]:: I am going to assume that you were hella drunk when you sent this? [TEXT]:: Just guessing

[TXT] your phone must have a vendetta against me [TXT] at least it was just texting. i mean, may got lost running around town with no shoes. i’m doing good on that end, i’d say. [TXT] glad you don’t hate me [TXT] to be completely honest, kind of figured drunk eddie’s drunk texting would’ve been off putting and worthy of a “not doing anything with that weirdo ever again” reaction.  [TXT] also, i’m really melodramatic when i have a hangover.