pluvia tenebris.

in the meantime I will probably mostly be mindlessly on Pokefarm (feel free to click me in guest most to give me delta points!) and straightening up our living space now that I have more motivation to work on some irl goals.

❝  i guess i always kinda knew?  it just wasn’t that important until i got older.  ❞

❝  it never mattered to me like,  what form people came in.  i love souls,  the body is just kinda like pretty packaging.  it’s nice but it’s not what’s important to me.  ❞

❝  oh yeah i did the whole ‘massive crush on my best friend’ thing.  wouldn’t recommend it.  ❞

❝  today my gender is kinda of ‘meeehh?’  ❞

❝  yeah of course i’m only into women,  have you seen them?  ❞

❝  i think i had a harder time accepting myself than my family ever did.  ❞

❝  i’m pretty sure everyone else knew i was gay before i ever realized it.   ❞

❝  i have a hard time talking about it,  even now—i’m not ashamed or anything like that.  i just,  don’t really know…how or what to say i guess.  ❞

❝  i think i’m ready to actually come out to them.  ❞

❝  i really want to tell them but i don’t wanna do it alone…could you help me with it?  ❞

❝  the ‘am i gay’ quizzes are a gateway drug.  ❞

❝  would you mind using [insert pronouns] for me now?  i’m trying to see how it feels.  ❞

❝  they’re right actually,  i’m gay and i do have an agenda to make everything gayer.  ❞

❝  ever since i told them i’m gay they keep pointing to every slightly attractive man and asking if he’s my type.  ❞

❝  me? no i don’t think i’m—i mean.  yeah sometimes i think about what it’d be like to kiss girls/guys but i’d never…come on,  everyone thinks about it a little bit right?  ❞

❝  at this point the closet is literally made of glass.  ❞

❝  actually,  i’m [insert identity].  ❞

❝  it’s all ‘i wish i was into women it’d be so much easier’ until you find out about the lesbian drama.  ❞

❝  i’m bisexual and confused.  not about being bi,  though.  just like…in general.  about life.  ❞

❝  i just need a nice bear to throw me around for a few hours,  i think it’d do more for me than therapy.  ❞

❝  i would trust any stone butch with my life.  ❞

❝  sappho would be so proud.  ❞

❝  i’m still figuring myself out.  i know i’m not straight,  that’s a start.  ❞

❝  i finally figured out my sexuality and then boom here comes a gender identity crisis.  ❞

❝  i’ve just…never really been interested in the whole sex thing.  ❞

❝  anyway,  if neither of us find our true loves in the next five to ten years,  wanna have a lavender marriage?  for the taxes.  ❞

❝   you wanna come to pride with me?  ❞

❝   this is my first pride actually,  i’m kinda nervous.  ❞

❝   well,  this seems as good a time as any to come out.  ❞

❝  no one can know about this—it’s just between us okay?  ❞

❝  i’d never tell anyone.  ❞

❝  you don’t owe anyone ‘coming out.’  it’s personal,  do things at your own pace.  only tell the people you want to.  ❞

❝  you’ve always made me feel safe so,  i just knew i could tell you about it.  ❞

❝  everyone’s hot and i’m a disaster who doesn’t know how to ask anyone out.  ❞

❝  i’m not sure i wanna fuck them or be them.  ❞

❝  i’m just experimenting i guess,  trying to figure out what i like.  ❞

❝  she said she didn’t see us working out but then she brought me a potted plant so i guess it’s still up in the air.  ❞

❝  i want to be one of those bold,  unapologetic people but i’m still just terrified.  ❞

❝  she’s so pretty i think i’m gonna die.  ❞

❝  oh,  no he’s got a great smile too.  i’m in deep this time.  ❞

❝  how did you know?   like for sure that you were into [gender]?  ❞

❝  do you mind if i ask you a question about being [identity]?  ❞

❝  thank you for trusting me with this.  ❞

❝  it’s okay,  take your time to put it into the right words.  i’m not going anywhere.  ❞

❝  wait,  you think i’m [identity]?  what makes you say that?  ❞

❝  i’m hoping this is food and not human body parts,  but who knows? ❞

❝  you’d have to be a fucking idiot to come here.  luckily,  that’s my speciality.  ❞

❝  kids - we just hit the fucking jackpot.  ❞

❝  should i be freaking out right now?  ❞

❝  no offense,  but you’re kind’ve scary looking.  ❞

❝  where am i supposed to pee?  in the woods?  fuck that.  ❞

❝  [name],  you absolute bastard.  ❞

❝  if you’re here to kick my ass,  you’re going to have to get in line.  ❞

❝  you almost hurt my feelings,  but you could never be so lucky. ❞

❝  fine,  i’ll do it. but I’m gonna be an ass about it.  ❞

❝  not going to lie,  i’m getting the heebie jeebies. ❞

❝  we all got something to hide.  it’s just easier that way.  but it’s totally cool when someone shows you what’s underneath.  that’s my favorite part.  ❞

❝  a smart trespasser wouldn’t go towards the sound of another person,  ‘lest they get caught.  ❞

❝  i’m stupid, so I do it all the time.  ❞

❝  i feel like this could’ve been done without the manhandling.  ❞

❝  is that what you were going to say,  or did i make this entire thing awkward?  ❞

❝  oh god,  now i’m going to get sued by the ghostbusters.  ❞

❝  don’t do that,  i’ll get demonetized.  ❞

❝  you’re even beautifuler at two in the morning.  sorry,  i had to speak my mind.  ❞

❝  great,  add it to your porn collection.   ❞

❝  i’m never going to trust you again.  ❞

❝  everyone’s flawed.  at least you know it and aren’t super weird or righteous about it.  ❞

❝  i think you know more than i think you know.  ❞

❝  the devil isn’t in the details.  the devil’s everywhere.  you know what is in the details?  words i can’t pronounce.  ❞

❝  think happy thoughts,  and all that shit,  right?  ❞

❝  i need,  like,  seven hands,  but yours will do.  ❞

❝  you can literally do so many things with a machete.  ❞

❝  you’re literally blowing my mind right now.  ❞

❝  you would’ve done the same thing for me if you were five feet taller,  right?  ❞

❝  am i a dumb-smart person,  or a smart-dumb person?  ❞

❝  that was a level of aggression i didn’t expect,  but i can dig it.  ❞

❝  sorry,  i thought i saw you doing something suspicious.  ❞

❝  i still get tingles.  like i know you’re going to punch me,  but i’m excited about it.  ❞

❝  you mean you weren’t dropped on your head as a kid?  i thought that was a normal part of puberty. ❞

❝  you’re not darkness.  you’re light.  ❞

❝  we’re the best team around.  like shrek and donkey,  or… two of the five spice girls.  ❞

❝  none of my ideas are good ideas.  keep up!  ❞

❝  oh no,  no.  my kinks include hand holding,  and spotting ghosts in the window of a four story building.  ❞

❝  everyone else blames everything on god.  i might as well,  too.  ❞

❝  could you imagine how cold and clammy a ghost kiss would be?  ❞

❝  my life isn’t fun.  it never has been.  i never claimed to have a sparkling lifestyle.  ❞

❝  sorry not sorry,  as the kids say.  ❞

❝  i appreciate the determination to prove me wrong.  really. ❞

❝  do you want the truth,  or should i keep lying?  ❞

❝  you’re not just fucked up.  you’re fucked up and still going.  that’s more than some people can say. ❞

❝  now i’m getting creepy,  danger vibes.  ❞

❝  the intimidating man stare does nothing for me,  pal.  ❞

❝  i really want to ask what’s going on in your head right now,  but I’m afraid i won’t like the answer. ❞

❝  the plan is don’t die.  think you can manage that?  ❞

❝  it’s pretty straight forward,  you can either keep a secret,  or you can’t.  ❞

❝  why was i breaking and entering,  or why was i caught? ❞

❝  i can neither confirm nor deny whether i may or may not know something of importance to this situation. ❞

❝  so is that a ‘no’ to solving this with murder…?  ❞

❝  look i said i’d help you let’s not make a big thing out of it.  ❞

❝  i’m only helping you to make sure you don’t fuck it up.  ❞

❝  okay,  i’m just gonna nod and pretend to get this whole moral high ground speech you’re giving me so we can move on.  ❞

❝  i know you can be so much more than this.  ❞

❝  would you just stop treating me like something you’re trying to fix?  ❞

❝  don’t get any weird ass ideas,  i’m just here cause we want the same thing.  ❞

❝  why do you do that?  every time i think we’re getting somewhere you shut down and do something stupid to try push me away again. ❞

❝  see the thing about your plan is,  it’s not gonna fucking work.  let me do this my way.  ❞

❝  i’m only saying this once so don’t ever bring it up again,  but i actually like having you around.  you challenge me.  i like that.  ❞

❝  stop posturing and just let me help you.  ❞

❝  we do work well together,  but i don’t belong here any more than you belong where i do.   ❞

❝  okay,  i’m sick of you acting like i’ve somehow had it easier than you.  ‘cause i haven’t.  i just choose not to be a dick about my shit.  ❞

❝  you make me want to be better.  sometimes that feels good,  but a lot of the time…i feel like it’ll never be enough.  ❞

❝  i never asked you to change,  why can’t you just accept how i am too?  ❞

❝  i know you can be better—i’ve seen you be better than this!  ❞

❝  why does it matter so much to you what i choose to be?  ❞

❝  actually,  i think we rub off on each other quite well.  ❞

❝  okay if you smile at me like that one more time i’m going home you smug little shit.  ❞

❝  no— don’t start.  i’m here,  i’m making an effort.  ❞

❝  you’ve got quite the mean streak in you,  haven’t you?  i’m impressed.  ❞

❝  wow,  i didn’t think you knew how to be selfish.  ❞

❝  well,  i didn’t think you knew how to be selfless.  ❞

❝  i have a lot of regrets.  and if i’m honest,  i envy you.  you alway seem so sure of what is or isn’t right.  ❞

❝  if you would just let me speak for a moment you’d see we’re on the same side here.  ❞

❝  if you tell anyone about last night,  i’ll cut your tongue off.  ❞

❝  alright,  so we kissed.  don’t get so bent out of shape about it.  ❞

❝  are you ashamed?  about being with me?  ❞

❝  it’s not that i don’t want anyone to know about us,  i just don’t think they’d understand.  ❞

❝  i think you like being around me ‘cause you don’t quite have to be so uptight as you do with all your little friends.  ❞

❝  i can’t seem to stay away from you.  ❞

❝  alright,  okay—we’ll do this your way.  but i can’t promise there won’t be mild complaining.  ❞

❝  i said i’m fine.  go find someone who actually likes your fussing.  ❞

❝  careful there,  someone might think you’re actually starting to care.  ❞

❝  it’s fine,  you wouldn’t be—well,  you,  if you could do something like this.  that’s why i’m here isn’t it?  ❞

❝  you brought me along because i can do things you can’t handle.  so just let me do my part then,  yeah?  ❞

❝  no, lets find another way.  ❞

❝  someday,  you’re gonna have to learn there isn’t always another way.  there isn’t always a right answer.  ❞

❝  before i met you,  i used to understand where i stood on everything.  now it’s all…mixed up.  ❞

❝  the world has never been black and white,  you’re just starting to see the grey for the first time.  ❞

❝  you don’t have to do this,  let me do it for you.  ❞

❝  no,  we’ll do this together.  ❞

❝  i’m not heartless,  you know.  i just don’t see the point in wearing it on my sleeve all the time.  ❞

❝  i don’t think you’re weak,  by the way.  in fact,  in some ways you have strengths i’d never be able to possess.  ❞

❝  just because i don’t do things the way you do doesn’t mean i’m wrong.  ❞

❝  i do trust you.  you’ve earned that.  ❞

❝  oh god,  don’t look at me like that.  i’d rather you just be angry than do the whole disappointed face.  ❞

❝  i didn’t let you down,  i don’t answer to you!  ❞

❝  why can’t you just try to have a little hope?  ❞

❝ don’t do it. ❞

❝ don’t do this. ❞

❝ don’t look. ❞

❝ don’t cry. ❞

❝ don’t laugh. ❞

❝ don’t leave. please. ❞

❝ don’t be like that. ❞

❝ don’t bother. ❞

❝ don’t eat that. ❞

❝ don’t risk it. ❞

❝ don’t look at me. ❞

❝ don’t give up your day job. ❞

❝ don’t tell me what to do. ❞

❝ don’t even think about it. ❞

❝ don’t think too hard about it. ❞

❝ don’t you want me? ❞

❝ don’t give me that shit. ❞

❝ don’t procrastinate. ❞

❝ don’t worry about it! ❞

❝ don’t knock it until you’ve tried it! ❞

❝ don’t be so hard on yourself. ❞

❝ don’t jump to conclusions here. ❞

❝ don’t play the victim. ❞

❝ don’t just sit there! do something! ❞

❝ don’t hesitate to ask if you need anything. ❞

❝ don’t make me tell you again. ❞

❝ don’t hold your breath. ❞

❝ don’t be a menace. ❞

❝ don’t let them get to you. ❞

❝ don’t stoop to their level. ❞

❝ don’t get your hopes up. ❞

❝ don’t like it? leave.  ❞

❝ don’t hold back. let it out. ❞

❝ don’t mention it! ❞

❝ don’t fuck with me. ❞

Harlan Cooper from Netflix’s The Umbrella Academy is autistic

at the link below are high quality, roleplayable gifs of justin h. min in two youtube shorts, american refugee and how i became an adult. these were all made by me, from scratch. he is korean (possibly with some japanese ancestry), so please keep that in mind with casting.

like/reblog if you use, and don’t use them inappropriately or i will delete them!

trigger warning: eating/drinking, partial nudity

~204 gifs. 268px by 151px.

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If you click on THIS LINK, you’ll be taken to #60 gifs of actor Justin H. Min, best known for playing Ben Hargreeves on The Umbrella Academy. Every gif is 245x140 in size and made by yours truly, so please do not repost or add to other gif hunts. Enjoy!

ETHNICITY: Japanese & Korean SOURCE: The Umbrella Academy / Season 1 TW: Mild violence DISCLAIMER: You may turn these into gif icons if you clearly credit me once posted.