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I recently realized I'm a trans woman(trust me it was a long time coming), and had the experience of still being too nervous to tell anyone, but also having a burning need to share it somehow. This blog is how I'm doing that.

I'm generally pretty submissive, but the gender thing makes me more so because I feel like I don't know what I'm doing with it, which makes me want someone to guide me.

*click*

You look back at her, and see the source of the noise in her hand. "Oh, this is a stim toy," she says, with an awkward laugh. "I'm autistic." You nod, but it's not like any stim toy you've ever seen. You put another piece of chocolate in your mouth.

*click*

Again, the moment you taste it, you hear the noise. You look at the so called stim toy again, and you're sure it's no normal one. It doesn't look like it can do anything other than make that one noise. But you can't just accuse her of lying about it being a stim toy. You'd sound like an asshole. You watch her as you put the third piece into your mouth and bite down.

*click*

She's not even trying to hide it, really! But then, maybe she doesn't think she needs to. She probably thinks you don't even know what clicker training is. You realize that you can't confront her about it without admitting that you know it. That you've seen people online being horny about it, and been at least a little intrigued. What if it's really a coincidence, and she's doing it by accident?

*click*

It's so on purpose! Why are you trying to make excuses for her? You'll just ignore her. Since you know what she's doing, it probably won't even work. You calm yourself down. Yeah, that should- "I'm excited to get to know you better," she says, "I've always wanted to train a new hire." You try not to blush at her slight emphasis on the word, which she obviously thinks of as a private joke you won't understand. Not sure you can say anything, even if you knew what to say, you put another piece of chocolate in your mouth.

*click*

When you're done, they reverse everything, and send you to meet up with your friends again. On the way, you bump into someone, and feeling pressure on your chest, moo with pleasure as you imagine being milked again. You blush, but decide it's not a big deal, since you were literally trained to behave like that.

Except, when you meet with your friends, they all seem totally normal. One of them says she only said moo a few times during the experience, and another, not at all, although she did enjoy the milking and the orgasms. Even when they talk about moments that seem to have effected them as much as you, they don't seem to have any of the lingering effects that you do.

You stand there, as they casually discuss the hypnosis phrases that make you tremble with the need to drop to your knees and get milked and fucked like the cow you are while you moo with pleasure. Your nipples are hard, and you're unbelievably horny, and the fact that no milk comes out anymore bothers you. Then they all turn to you, and ask what your favorite part was.

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