Type: LOVE HOTEL PART 3

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Hi darling,

I’m really sorry to hear that you’ve been struggling with this! It definitely sounds really annoying to deal with. Having trouble believing things are real is generally described as derealisation, which is a type of dissociation. Derealisation can include the following symptoms:

Feeling like a normal environment is unfamiliar;

A sense that what is happening is unreal;

Feeling detached from the world;

A perception of objects changing shape, colour, size;

Feeling that people you know are strangers.

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Someone can experience dissociation for many reasons. People who went through trauma will often experience dissociation, but it can also be a symptom of anxiety, depression, etc. It can be helpful to find out what could be causing you to dissociate. If it turns out you have anxiety and this is causing dissociation, then your dissociation will most likely reduce if you get treatment for your anxiety. There are some techniques that you can try without knowing the cause though. These are called grounding techniques. We have a page with different grounding techniques here. When you feel like you’re about to dissociate, you can use these techniques to try and stay more in reality. Or if you feel like you’ve already dissociated, you can use them to try and get back to reality. My personal favourite is the following grounding technique:

Describe 5 things you can see;

Describe 4 things you can hear;

Describe 3 things you can feel;

Describe 2 things you can smell;

Describe 1 thing you can taste.

I do want you to know that I’m not a professional in any way, so it’s definitely also possible that derealisation isn’t what you’re dealing with. We do not recommend self-diagnosis for the reasons listed here, so I definitely encourage you to see a professional so that you can get their opinion on what could be going on. You can visit your GP / local doctor and explain to them what’s been going on and that you want to find out what it is. They can then refer you to a psychiatrist, therapist, or other mental health professional. You can read more about getting help here.

Like I said, I’m not a professional, so I’m also not really able to say whether having to cover your camera is related. When you speak to a professional about the symptoms that could be derealisation, I’d also recommend you to speak to them about this. It could be a delusion, but it could also be something else. It’s just best to let a professional figure it out with you. I’m sorry that I can’t give you more answers, but I hope this helped at least a little bit!

Sometimes what seems impossible, is just hard.