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Your hologram stumbled into my apartment Hands in the hair of somebody in darkness Named Chloe or Sam or Sophia or Marcus And I just watched it happen

“Go on, tell me more,” she tells him. It hurts her imagining him with other people but he needs to think she doesn’t care that she doesn’t love him. The holograms of him and the others dance in front of her eyes and she just watches it happen.

As the decade would play us for fools And you saw my bones out with somebody new Who seemed like he would have bullied you in school You just watched it happen

They have been friends for almost a decade now. And she dates the kind of people he would hate, hoping that he would interfere, be the knight and save her from them, but he doesn’t care anymore. It’s her life, after all. And they’re just friends, after all.

If you want to tear my world apart Just say you’ve always wondered.

And despite it all, he still has the audacity to jokingly say, “I have always wondered if we would fit as lovers. But nah, we’re best friends.”

You said some things that I can't unabsorb You turned me into an idea of sorts

“God I hope I end up with someone like you,” he says to her. “Then why not me?!” Why feed the ideas into her brains if she it is only to remain just as such, an idea, a concept.

I changed into goddesses, villains and fools Changed plans and lovers and outfits and rules All to outrun my desertion of you

She changes herself to fit his type, to be someone she was not. She changes her ambitions and plans in the hopes that he can finally see her. Alas…

If you want to break my cold, cold heart Just say, 'I loved you the way that you were'

Oh and after all this, he still has the guts to say that he liked her old self ?

…to the moment I crashed into you Like so many wrecks do Too impaired by my youth to know what to do

It’s alright now, she knows it’s too late to do anything about it, to make him love her. After all she was just a silly kid in love when they first met. She needs to let it go…she wants to let it go.

So if I sell my apartment And you have some kids with an internet starlet Will that make your memory fade from this scarlet maroon like it never happened Could it be enough to just float in your orbit Can we watch our phantoms like watching wild horses Cooler in theory but not if you force it to be, it just didn’t happen

One day she will move away, he will have a family of his own. Will he still think of her fondly or will he remember the mess she made of herself trying to be the one for him? Could it be enough to just be a part of each other’s life and laugh over the good ol’ days? Will there still be any love between them, even if platonic?

She has reached stage five now. Acceptance- that she will not be his one true love, that their fates have some other plans for them. Acceptance that them being in love was just an illusion; much better in theory but not something they could force to be perfect in reality.

But it still will break her heart if he laughs “damn I wonder if we would have been good together.” She will always wonder. Will she always wonder…?

Lyric art credit to @stillgotscars btw <3