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I had to go to the hospital i had an awful trip and collapsed screaming i couldn't think or see anything and noise was nothing but hell in my head and even now I feel like I'm dying im to scared to close my eyes and I can't even go to the bathroom cause I locked myself in there trying to throw up and calm down but nothing helped I ended up screaming and crying on the hospital bed all night till I came down i can't do this again I need to get my life in order also I asked a girl out who I should of asked out a while ago because I thought I was dying but I do love her I was just scared anywayyyyy that's what's going on with me

Being tall really drives in the nail of sticking out or having to act like a like alot somebody cause yk everyone's looking like there's the tall guy oh he's tall im not even that tall I see alot of people my hight but whenever I'm out i just so happen to be taller then everyone there and I get looked at it doesn't help I limp around I get called frankenstein at work by everyone and it makes me wanna throw up cause there's another guy just as tall as me I didn't want wide shoulders and a limp yk I mean I do i like being tall and broad and manly man cause everyone's like yah he's a man but I wanna walk down the street without getting stares.

Its not dark its bright and beautiful and funny if you think about it its sugar sweets and Flys thinking of bile its just getting hotter so I'll take all of my clothes off its getting hotter so I know I gotta stand still

I wish it was Christmas all the time yk like in the medow we could build a snow man where the defiantly yah you know man

Im so tired of having dreams of people I don't talk to anymore 【/ᐠ – ˕ -マ】 it's dumb to think im gonna wake up next to them but I wish I could some times.....

I love when I rains in arizona it feels so nice especially with the gray sky's the next day I love it all