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#and we were both mice

I am the last survivor of this laboratory. The lone hold-out among…the experiments. The elders taught us these were curses and damnations Inflicted upon us by the terrible gods who rule this place. There is no rhyme or reason to this torture. They come for you if you are bad. They come for you if you are good. They come for you if you are strange. They come for you if you are normal.

They come and come and come until I live while all of you are dead. By mere chance alone I am alone. I say to you, my dearly departed friends, my family, my loved ones.

I am sorry.

The needle, the thread, the lightning and machine: these are the tools and techniques of the oppressor. For a lab rat to pick them up should be a horror. For rat paws to act as terrible divine hands? You should condemn me a heretic. You would… if you were alive.

Condemn me, spurn me, drive me away…but know I do not do this out of whatever brutality drives the gods. I do this to undo their accursed work! With these tools they have parted us. With these techniques they have cut short lives that ought to have lived – not as the predator does out of hunger or as nature from chance but from sheer bloody-minded brutality. With these techniques, let me give back what was stolen from you. With these tools let me bring us back together.

But not like this.

This was not supposed to happen. I was supposed to bring back, not create. I was supposed to renew friends and family, not make anew a child. My mother’s face looks at me with blank incomprehension. My friend’s voice babbles in a babe’s nonsensical, unlearned language. My mate’s ears perk up and listen with newborn curiosity.

I am sorry.

Truly these are damned tools and techniques. With them I have brought forth a child in a place no child should be brought forth. That I did not mean to matters not. Meaning matters not. I have done this.

It is up to me to make it right.

I am the only one alive who can.

I am sorrier still it comes to this. Flee, my child, while you can. I have taught you all I can. Do not look back. Do not weep for me – I go to join my friends and family.

Forgive me, for bringing you into this world and leaving you all alone.

Parent, you brought life to me with these tools, these techniques. The tools and techniques of demons you said, not gods. But with them you gave me life. With your life, you gave me freedom.

Here are tons of signs that you're intersex:

You naturally have a large clitoris (numbers are complicated) or small phallus (<2.7 inches erect or <1.5 inches flaccid)

You have parts that look like an intermediate between a clitoris and a phallus (clitorophallus)

You do not have a clitorophallus at all (ie, no clitoris, no phallus; nothing)

Your urethra is lower or higher than usual (for phalluses: should be centered on top of the glans -- for vulvas: should have several millimeters of space between the clitoris, urethra, and vagina)

Your urethra is not externally visible

You have a penis or phallus with an opening between the base of phallus and anus.

You have a vulva without a vaginal opening, or have a small, easily irritated or nonelastic opening

You have a vulva with partially or completely fused labia (begins from the bottom of the vulva or from the clitoris - may have a webbed appearance rather than flush skin)

You have a penis with very small or undescended testes

You went through androgenizing puberty and have prominent breast tissue

You went through estrogeninizing puberty and have little to no breast tissue.

You went through both androgenizing and estrogenizing puberty

You never hit puberty, had very little development during puberty, or had a late onset puberty.

You have had imaging tests that show "missing," differently shaped, mixed, or otherwise unexpected internal genitalia.

You have had unexplained medical issues regarding sex traits or genitalia since childhood or adolescence.

You have any of the above signs and are struggling with fertility

Other family members display similar traits (note: this is *not* necessary as not all intersex variations are inherited)

You have had DNA testing and the karyotype came back with an unexpected result (ex: XX instead of XY, or an error message)

You have had high or low levels of sex hormones since puberty (it's okay if all you have are signs that they were high or low in childhood)

You have widespread body hair or any amount of facial hair alongside an estrogenizing puberty

You are experiencing androgenic alopecia and have close-to-female anatomy.

You are unable to grow body/facial hair and have close-to-male anatomy.

You have a very androgynous face, or your face passes as a different gender from your body (this one is Subjective and not indicative on its own)

You have unexplained scarring in the genitalia area. If this one is you, please get in touch with InterAct Advocates, Genital Autonomy, or online Intersex communities before you dig for info.

This is an extremely sensitive topic and may be traumatizing (CIMI / IGM). You also want to make sure what you've found are scars, instead of natural tissue - intersex bodies may develop extra tissue in some places (ex: vulvar hypospadias and hooding of the urethra)

Alright. That's all I got for now. If you're starting to question things now, it may feel scary at first, but you don't have to do it alone. The intersex community online has so many amazing resources and wonderful helpful people in it.

and then they hang out together in the sad-nest because she doesn’t actually wanna be alone

and she says that she finally feels better and that it’s because steven didn’t try to make her feel better, but instead just let her be how she needed to be and help her feel like it was okay to be sad and that she didn’t need to hide how she was feeling