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I wish I'd discovered movies/films in my teenage years like I have done in my 20s.

At least I'm grateful to the COVID-19 pandemic for leading me to discovering such a huge passion I would have for something which was right in front of me

something that if I'd noticed that was where one of my true passions lay then who knows what I'd be doing with my life right now

right now I'm a maths teacher in tower hamlets with a fiancé and a cat

could I have been literally anything in the movie industry

I want to do something about this and I think it is time to just try because being 29 and realising that I am now the age, if not quite a bit older, than people who I look up to and the age they were when they started pursuing their passions

and right now I am happy with my life.

I'm happy with my career, I earn decent money and have the freedom to see movies, go to the theatre and get a morning coffee on the way to work without feeling guilty which I know is not a lot of people from a working class background have the luxury of being able to do

I think my dad starting his youtube channel a few years ago and telling me has really opened my eyes to it is something I've always thought about but I've never had enough of a passion in something to do that thing

but I do think I've now found it

having a career where my job would be to just watch movies and absorb myself in movie culture all day would honestly be a dream come true I think

do I try and write a screen play

a short film

how 

awkward

well least I know I've done jack shit wrong

this is all u

I don’t get it

cause you’ve literally introduced me to all your mates

I’m

like

and it’s a different account to the one we matched on

like seriously

I thought this year was gunna be so shit and then u came along and things were genuinely looking great like I really fucking like you

we were seeing each other for two months for fucks sake

and you go on holiday and when you come back its as if I don’t even fucking exist 

just as I thought I was getting somewhere with someone

really opening up to them

like saw things going somewhere with them

only taken a year 

I went on a date Wednesday night and it like went good? grounds for a 2nd date for sure and she was just talking constantly and I was listening and we were having conversation and I ended up knowing so much about her

and just got the ‘hey had a nice time but no spark’