My new coworkers are nice, I can tell we aren't gonna be incredibly close and I like that. I dislike being too friendly with coworkers and classmates and such because I have to see them so often, then something becomes expected of me ... I like what we have so far. Friendly chats and just doing our own thing. Autism heaven. Like I can tell one of my dormmates wants to go beyond that level to become like Friends Friends and idk how to tell her I don't really want that without sounding rude. Thankfully she's away over this semester tho. She's nice and I like her, we share a lot of similarities but idk I just know too many people atp I can't keep track. I need my daily hours spent watching birds in the silence of nature without having someone possibly show up and say Heeyyyy!!! bc they recognize me

The dorohedoro anime is majorly lacking in q hayashida's nudity and I feel like a dog out in the rain

Please please please does anyone have the "I could uplift you" "TEXTBOOK MANIPULATION. STAY AWAY." omegle chat screenshot I've been trying to find it for so long

Carpenter ants are a fucking riot dude. Just going any which way. Look at the sidewalk there's just 5 carpenter ants going wherever they want like who cares

My school should have an app(HACKS HEAVES RETCHES PUKES EVERYWHERE PUKES BLOOD)lication where random departments can post that they need someone to come over and lift boxes or drive a golf cart for them or organize an office or whatever and you can just come over and start doing work for someone I don't even need to be paid for it I just want more time being a work pony (says someone with scoliosis and arthritis and fibromyalgia and

Starting to find my dorm room as a dangerous place tbh. I get home from class or work or both and just spending 10 minutes at my desk Im already thinking to myself "Holy shit I don't do literally anything" but not in a hobby way its like I think im not doing enough actual meaningful work tbh but if I went in to analyze videos voluntarily late at night I would be falling asleep

Honestly tho Halo 2 is probably the best game ever

See, there's an underlying consistency, (i.e. everything continues forever, a destroyed universe may very well bounce back in another big bang, entropy probably can't be escaped), but there are also things that have to change (as entropy is). And I think these things that have to change are the more "material" or "worldly" things, tho I don't think worldly is the right term because it extends to anywhere that things are, not just planets. Anyways then you have to kinda debate with yourself what scale something is on. How big and grand can an idea be while still being Material or Worldly. Like there's money and fame and the physical bodies of your friends in your current life that are definitively worldly and will vanish (from your POV, now changed) upon death. But then you have spiritual ideas like that of rebirth, "souls" in general, and "soulmates". How material can the idea of a soulmate be if that's something you believe in? Like I think it's very much a thing our funny and ever-changing reality would do to say that soulmates are finite and material ideas. Like you have a soulmate for a few million years and then it just fizzles out and you never recognize each other again. This just kinda seems like it aligns with the way things work. BUUUUUT none of this is quantifiable in any way. So who knows. But nonexistence is surely something that can't exist imo. Because how could it fundamentally. It's paradoxical in itself. My sole prayer is that whatever may potentially be bore witnessed to upon death is either 1. flashbacks to what you witnessed as an embryo (potentially the history of your evolution on earth up to the present day? would be cool. like, in death, it would go in reverse. Probably wouldn't be pretty and linear during cell death in comparison to cell replication tho.) Or 2. Just something fucking disgusting. Animal life is built on filthy wet meat and when thinking about that, can you imagine what, visually, an AFTERlife would look like. It genuinely has to be awful. I need it now man. Show me. But like, let me come back to this life after showing me, like pls don't actually kill me yet I'm fighting really hard ... (says to a universe that in its grand beauty would not care. I love her sm)

It's important that change never stops. If something stays for too long I get so scared. Like... Change already! LOL

Can a fat white guy be kuudere