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I just made two posters for my room cuz i care about aesthtic but i love this old ass anime so much to let go

WIP | i always thought Dorothy would have a weird kink , and of course she would force everyone to participate 

I’ve always knew - on some level - that i get anxiety from time to time , but i never thought it was a disorder level. I always believed everyone has anxiety attacks when they’re under stress , which is true on some level , and I always linked my anxious feelings when I’m in large groups\ in public to having a “ shy introvert personality “

and it always seemed reasonable to me 

Until yesterday i sent a text to my friend , who responded with “ umm honey i think u have GAD ( Generalized anxiety disorder ) “

and of course my immediate answer was “ girl you’re mad “ , “ I’m fine I’m just stressed cuz of school “ 

well , she attacked me and pointed out “ this time it’s school , last time it was ur messy room , the time before was that loud noise that sent u to an anxiety attack mode ... “ and she went on and on to listing normal events and how they all made me act the same way I’m acting while under stress 

then she sent me some online quizzes , and i took them , not to prove her point , but rather to show her that she’s just mad and I’m totally fine 

well... no she wasn’t mad and I scored “ mildly anxious “ in every damn quiz 

I REFUSED to believe that , so she told me to look it up myself and judge 

AND OH BOI DO I REGRET LOOKING THIS SHIT UP 

I Have most symptoms of anxiety disorder , and I’m trying to deny it so i went and texted my other best friend that my first friend has gone mad and she’s trying to convince me that I have some Anxiety disorder 

dude I’m still crying because her response was “ i thought u knew ? “ 

I’m still in denial until I get a professional to diagnose me , cuz we all know those stupid google symptoms always makes us believe we have something that we don’t 

I like architecture, interior design , hello kitty , japan trends , gundam wing , teen top , Mamamoo , Girls’ Generation , plants , creepy pasta , unsolved mystries 

I’m struggling to combine all of that in one aesthtic , also it’s SO random 

I mean the kpop groups go together , but I’m not crazy enough to actually turn my life to be all about them 

Hello kitty & Gundam wings are things i grew up loving and my life actually is all about them , but they DONT make a good aesthtic , I mean imagine Heero yuy with a hello kitty bow and you’ll understand how i feel 

archeticture & interior design & plants do go together , but that’s my career not my entire life - at least not yet -