At the mental hospital my mom said that i will try to find the most mentally unstable people to befriend so i can become like them??
She only thinks that cuz i dont befriend religious friends and only alternatives who just happens to be ill
I got mad about it cuz its not true and she was like “well why didnt you tell them it wasnt true" nga why would say something that was never proven to be fucking true are you really that retarded??
Yes i lowky just kinda befriend someone who has drugs problem but im never considering those HIV positive as my bsf forverr 🤮🤮(unless their awesome and is willing to do fun shit together <3) once i find out who their dealer is i will drop them so i kinda am doin it but not to copy their unstable personality.
At the car i got so mad i began to call them names and my mom started crying, my dad was like "see how much you’re hurting you’re mom, you’re gonna give me a heart attack and then who would love you, the only ppl that actually cared and loved you will be dead because of you” like i could give two shits of his pathetic not even bare medium affection and care, yeah lying to me my whole life and abusing me when i was little was totally something a caring person will do i’m such a selfish bitch.
Ill be honest i also kinda abuse my parents well not physically only like mentally exhausting them on purpose and will push them to their limits so they can kick me out so i can get them arrested, so i’m no victim myself ill only change when i move far away from my parents.
I wonder how my life would be if i was born white. I still wanna look the same but i just want straight glowy hair and is till wanna be black haired i’m not black i’m asian..
