mina

Okay I admit it! I’m filled with disgusting amounts of jealousy and envy

i’m not a nikki freeman apologist because nikki freeman did nothing wrong what would she have to apologize for

maybe in another universe i'll get to be a teenager when the world isn't actively burning to the ground

on my second viewing of obsession, i had the realization that nikki’s story at the party wasn’t the movie using incest as an easy shorthand for making the audience uncomfortable or creating a general “things are off” vibe but was another way the real nikki was crying out—a metaphor for the fact that nikki, like gretel, is being made to fuck her “little brother” (bear) under duress, at the behest of an external magic (the witch’s spell in her story; obviously, bear’s wish)

I know manipulation is bad, but God, the idea of being able to control someone's mind feels so safe. I know how to make you like me, how to make you never leave me. I'll make you mine and I'll make you enjoy it too.

doesn’t matter how okay i think i am, the loneliness will always creep in

i just clock in on tumblr and post some bullshitttt everyday

the things that are wrong with me will never go away

sometimes i’m mean to my mom and i’m not even trying to be, i have so much built up resentment towards her and it shows through and random times and then i feel so terrible and like i’m the most evil rude disgusting monster on earth like ugh i’m sorry i didn’t mean it pls

god i so desperately want to feel loved

there’s something so gutwrenching about the fact that the female characters in obsession have real dreams and wishes but never get the chance to see them realized, while both male characters waste their wishes on short-term selfish satisfaction. they were complex, free-spirited young women who just wanted to create art, and they were destroyed by a man determined to confine them to his superficial perception of them. nikki wanted to be a writer, sarah wanted to be a tattoo artist and now neither of them will get to be anything at all