Only In Pieces

Living life in a cycle . I think I'm gonna tattoo X is on my thumbs to remind me to shut up. Maybe that'll break the cycle

Am I crazy? Is it me? Are my feelings from my imagination?

Scrolling thru my posts and it’s the same misery

Am I crazy? I’m not imagining anything. I don’t feel unreasonable or disproportionately reactive. I’m actually almost feeling nothing. I can’t confidently say he’s not out gambling with another woman. He might be. What I think won’t change anything besides make things worse. I am sad. Hurt too. I’m done with the conversation.

I’m not sure when I stopped waiting until after the initial surge of emotion to speak about what I was feeling and why. I hate not being taken seriously and one of the easiest things for people to dismiss is an emotional woman.

Wrong and stupid is the message. Opposite than what I believed. Of course.