Just Stop.
I have hardness in my heart.
I was more healthy two years ago.
I was traumatized.
Very traumatized.
But I was healthy enough to love someone the right way.
Now I feel burnt. Like I don't know how to love.
Like I need some time.
I do idiotic things.
I let him back in.
The foo hopped into my car, wouldn't leave, I drove him partial way to my house,
and out of the kindness of my heartcuz I didn't want him to feel like I was kidnapping him
I drove him back
Only for him to take my car and house keys away.
Like bro. As if I don't already have PTSD from you. Taking important things away. Taking things away that will make some keep around.
That just made it worse. My body has not forgotten the feeling of maltreatment.
What kind of partner treats their best friend like that?
The guy lacks insight.
He will never see how his actions destroyed everything.
He's shown me enough consistence of maltreatment to show me that I will only become more traumatized with him and he will continue to live as if he's giving me his all when all I wanted was him to give me his best self.
I have so many significant bad experiences where this guy has traumatized me.
Actions.
There's no point in talking to him about it.
I only get angry.
This is something my soul speaks that he does not have the mental or emotional capacity to understand.
It's pointless.














