is the world really such a terrible place? yesterday i asked if oat milk was extra and the barista said yes so i said ok just regular milk then and when she gave me my chai latte she whispered âi used oat milk ;)â doesnt that make u want to live another day?
here is my life philosophy: next week there might be someone ahead of you in line at the store whoâs short a quarter and you have a quarter and you can give it to them. if you werenât there, theyâd have to put something back. the week after that you could be getting lunch and the waiter might ask if you want some pancakes someone else ordered and never picked up. you could find someoneâs lost cat. you could watch someoneâs bag while they go to the restroom. there are so many ways you are going to touch other peopleâs lives and they are going to touch yours and thereâs no way to know when itâs going to happen. so you have to keep living!!! i wouldnât want to die knowing that tomorrow the barista will give me free oat milk just to be nice.Â
When I was 11 years old - we went to Sea World for my birthday. This was to avoid the realization I had no friends, and no one to come to a birthday party and probably because someone gave my mother free tickets at work. It was kinda a shitty day despite being at a theme park full of cute animals. There was a new roller coaster there that had just opened so we decided to go on. I was nervous. Iâd never been on a roller coaster.
A group of 6 college kids were ahead of us in line and started chatting with me. Full on just having a fun conversation with someone literally going through the beginning of a very awkward middle school period. I was so shocked they wanted to talk to me. I think my mom mentioned it was my birthday. They were very nice about it. When we got on the ride they told us to go ahead of them so we could sit at the front of the car since it held 8 people.
Now the ride (called Journey to Atlantis - I believe it is sadly no longer there) started with a slow ride of beautiful visuals of dolphins and oceans and computerized images of this imaginary Atlantis before going up the hill to the beginning of the coaster, where it paused for about 30 seconds, and then the ride started. The college kids must have known there would be a pause. Maybe theyâd ridden it before Iâm not sure.
But as we sat there on that peak, 6 people Iâve never known, and will never know again, sang a very very lonely 11 year old happy birthday. Loudly. And with gusto. They were happy and laughing and joyful. And it made me feel less alone in the world.
I am 29 years old this year, and I still remember them. I still remember that kindness. It is so important. It doesnât go into a vacuum. It exists beside me in my daily life. And I love the idea that I have been that person to someone else too.
Itâs stunningly lovely to be human when weâre kind to each other.
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