Mil Estrellas

refusal to participate due to self consciousness is actually more embarrassing than participating. it took me a very long time to figure that out. abject fear of embarrassment is actually causing you to do things that are more embarrassing than what you fear. you are gonna be embarrassed anyway. let go and be free

it's genuinely so funny how many people have commented on this post being like "you just don't get it bc you're neurotypical" --- my children I have suffered and died at the hands of social anxiety for the better part of my life. why do you think I wrote this post? your "oh that's fine for other people but I'm different and worse" mentality was mine for the longest time. the only way out is through. and not for nothing, anxiety medication helped me a lot

In the mood for Something

i’ve been drankin watermelon

The most interesting question you can ask about any character is not what do they want. it's what do they believe they deserve. because those two things are almost never the same and the gap between them is where your entire story lives. a person can want love completely and believe they don't deserve it and that belief will destroy every good thing that comes toward them in ways they won't even notice they're doing. write the gap. the gap is the character.

this is so late renaissance early mannerism. the controversial male nudity? the lighting and value on the figure of emphasis?? him bathed in light and placed ABOVE while the police are clad in dark and BELOW?? Uh HES HITTING THE CONTRAPPOSTO??

does it ever get better? has it gotten better? will it get better? when will it get better?