Are You A Gambling Man, Or Just An Idiot?

so turns out I wasn’t that bad on Thursday, the guy who told me what I did ‘embellished’ the story somewhat. I do feel better, still embarrassed at what I did, but that’s usually what I manage to do anyway. 

So I have had the worst couple of days. Why do I go out and drink and get blackout drunk? I feel like absolute shit, and from what people told me I did, I think I’ve lost some friends. It was so stupid and embarrassing and I’m honestly ashamed of myself. I feel like the worst person ever, and its all I can think about at the moment. It’s tearing me up inside, but there is no one I can really talk to about this. I just need to get it off my chest how terrible I feel.