Petite Powerhouse

‘Cuz baby I’m a trip wire

And you’re a land mine,

But I thought you had said

It’s the heat, I swear

Don’t take it personally

But how could I not

When you say it so accusatory?

I promise to listen

When it comes to you

But don’t go around

Making me feel like a fool

Words have real meaning

And you can’t take it back

Maybe next time you can

Try a different tact

I thought this was different

I thought this was right

I don’t want to go now

But I better call it a night

The cracks have surfaced

The tears caught in my throat

I can feel it inside me, I know

I’m about to choke

Try to get some sleep

Don’t go to bed upset

Pretend you won’t wake up

Filled with regret

Nothing has changed

But everything has

I don’t know how to love

And I may never again

I thought this was different

I thought this was right

I don’t want to go now

You told me I was your dream girl

And it was all I ever wanted to be

But it proved a title hard to live up to

I knew you’d soon get tired of me

Passionate kisses up against the bark of a tree

Falling in love under the California stars

Whispered promises and stolen glances

Slowly healing all of my scars

Things just kept getting better and better

Is this the love story of my dreams?

Now you say the pressure is too great

I hope it doesn’t rip apart at the seams

Let's live in this world we’ve created

A shelter from the storm on our own

For now, escape into this fantasy with me

I’ll be there when we slam back into reality

The world has descended into madness

I’m afraid you’re not seeing me at my best

But maybe that’s a sign this will actually work out

Maybe it’s all been some kind of a test

I don’t know what tomorrow brings

I’ve been trying this new thing of living for today

Don’t think too much about it, baby

Just promise me you’ll always stay

Let's live in this world we’ve created

A shelter from the storm on our own

Just escape into the fantasy with me

Children were playing in the field nearby

Their shrieks muffled by the crashing of waves

Sea salt air danced all around us

We were both looking for some kind of escape

You pulled me down, and on top of you

“Don’t move, I need the perfect shot.”

Lying under the sunlit tree together

Once you start, I’m afraid I cannot stop

But questions and fears spin around in my head

I’m getting dizzy from my own paranoia again

You keep telling me, let’s just wait and see

When I tell you I love you, please believe me

We drove down to the beach after I ruined things

Why do I always need to keep score?

We were tip-toeing on jagged rocks

I slipped and there was blood on the shore

But you delicately cleaned my cuts,

And told me I would be okay

I must’ve actually believed you that time

Because I went and got carried away

Then the questions and fears started spinning around in my head

I’m getting dizzy from my own paranoia again

You keep telling me, let’s just wait and see

When I tell you I love you, please believe me

We watched the sunset by the cliff side

The perfect end to our perfect day

And when we drove home that night

I still felt like there was so much to say

So I’ll write these thoughts in my notes app

Maybe it’ll be a song or poem someday

We can try to talk about it sometime

Maybe I’ll actually convince you to stay

But the questions and fears are always going to be spinning in my head

Will you catch me when I’m dizzy from my own paranoia again?

You keep telling me, let’s just wait and see

When I tell you I love you, please believe me

I believe you

I thought that I was broken

That id never love again

It was just a game I was sick of playing

Unlovable until the end

Too many open wounds

From battles won and lost

Trauma settled over me

It wasn’t worth the cost

I was told I was like a hurricane

Creating fear in my giant wake

But anger had never been my problem

It was fear that placed its stake

All the things he said he hated about me

You don’t seem to mind at all

I can take it, honey, you say to me