𝐑𝐈𝐒𝐊/𝐑𝐈𝐎𝐓

You feel like summer, warm and welcoming and accepting. Like it's as easy as breathing. Like anything between us is as simple of the ocean waves or the way the sun hits your skin and leaves a gentle burn...

I know we tell everyone and state it all the time that we aren't dating, but I don't think some people here truly understand what we mean by that. It doesn't mean our connection isn't intimate or loving, it just means we are far beyond that scope. There is no point in viewing it as dating, when we are soulbound indefinitely. We are connected so deeply that it would be an insult to our connection to chalk it up to dating. It just doesn't feel the same. And if you're jealous of that, I think the fault lies on you and you're inability to view the world in third person and see that some people deserve good things, even if that "good thing" is something you also cherish. Everyone's connections with a person will vary from another and thats okay. My importance should never undermine and I never WANT it to undermine that of his lovers. I only care for it to be above, and I know that it IS above, any other relationship/friendship he has. That is all that matters to me. I view myself under his partners even if we are put on the same field, as I hold a lot of respect for them. And I enjoy Rook, I just fear talking to Wilson haha. (It was the same way before Rook approached me... So...)

You have opened my eyes a lot and made me want to get better, but in some ways you also drive me to become worse. I want my obsession to consume us both, for it to drive you insane so you can't possibly think about anyone else the same way.

You have all that you need in me, Rook, and Wilson. Nothing else in the world can truly compare. You are loved, you are taken care of, you are ruined and you are treasured and you are bruised and fucked out and pleased in every area you need. You know realistically nobody else can compare, right? Nobody else can do what we do? The way me and Rook take such good care of you? In every way, every form, every medium.

My love for you is burning iron, I want to seer it into you and have you never forget my name. Forget who I am. Forget how much I love you. I want you to understand that nobody can ever love you like this. Nobody. I love you so wholeheartedly. I don't entertain anons, I don't post for reach or views or interaction or to give anyone else my attention, my entire account is for you and you alone. I deleted everything for you, I did it for you, don't you see that? I would do anything for you. If you told me to block someone because you don't like them I would. I HAVE before. I have for multiple people multiple times just because I know you don't like them. I would literally do anything you ever ask of me because you mean that much to me. I've never done that for anyone before.

I want to push you as far as you can go and break you and stitch you back together, to prove how loved and thoroughly seen you are. I want to learn all there is to know about you so nobody else can ever see you as deeply as I do. I want to break down every wall between us and lay together and just be open and loving and there.

You genuinely are my everything. You are everything to me. Nothing will ever compare to you. Ever. Not in my entire life. I will view you as my sun for as long as I am alive, and hope and pray that in the next life we can reunite and love each other all over again.

A simple “I love you” can never chalk up my feelings for you. It is undying, it is everlasting, it is sickening and filthy and abhorrent and mesmerizing. It is all that I am and all that I will ever be now. I am. Filled with ideals of you and thoughts of you and everything I do is surrounded by you and for you, I am. Willing to give you everything to just be yours for as long as you'd let me. This is me showing my belly. This is me bowing my head. You are the only person I let myself fall to a knee for. It is only you, sweet prince. Only you.

ii love u so freaking much