me & ur ghost

I was still clinging to you, even though I no longer loved you, could it be that I no longer loved you? or was it that I still had an unwavering hope that you would change and love me again? I tormented myself with pain 'cause if I'm honest, it was way much better than not feeling anything for you. I refused to accept that it was over, because I know I won't love again, because I know you are, or were, the only person who made me truly love, and maybe, even if we try again, it wouldn't be the same... whatever comes next, I know it will be nothing but lesser versions of what we once felt. Or at least to me.

Sometimes, we do not want to let go of the pain that someone we love left us, even if it hurts us, because we believe that it is the last bond that connects us.

I don't like how I think,