Perfect Morphine.

Its crazy how all these little things have made such a difference. Today I bought a laptop. A nice brand new laptop, with money that i save up, money that I worked my ass off for, and it felt so fucking good, to spend that 700$ on something that I wanted and that I will have for a long time, rather then just drugs.... it was so crazy the over whelming feeling of love I finally felt for myself, like all the hard times and everything paid off, like I could actually do good in my life. All from just buying a computer. I am actually proud of myself, for the first time in over a year sense I started this journey of getting clean and bettering my life... I actually feel like its a good thing... like something actually finally changed...

It's weird how tonight, from midnight until 5 am, was one of the best nights I've had in such a long time, and the only thing I did... Was drive through the cities with a guy that I think I really like, and the best part, was that it was so comfortable that we could just sit in silence and listen to music, without talking, but we could we still share personal stories, and now I have a date Tuesday.. I guess its true, when one door slams shut right in your face, another one opens (:

Alright everyone I want to start a podcast and I need some ideas on what you'd want to hear about!! (: message me please it would be a huge help! Come on! I have so many followers I could have so many good ideas from you guys.

Any ideas on what I should paint on a 30 inch by 40 inch canvas?