just a yap hole

it hurts sometimes but they’re probably intrusive so i just need to learn to brush them off better.

they’re back but are they really back? i feel as though nothing has changed because we don’t even talk. im scared to reach out. i don’t think they like me anymore. or maybe they’re scared of me again. i never wanted anything to change. maybe im invisible. i usually am. maybe im the one who’s hiding unintentionally. maybe its me. it’s me. probably. it is. it is. is it?

Even though I have admitted that I want to die sometimes, I am irrationally scared that one day I will confuse a cup that is mine with a cup of water with poison and I will drink it and die. It that just a me thing??

over the past three days when i think “galvana kill me right now” i distract myself with a). yummy boofish art by awesome moot and b). xilly

I know im going crazy for boofish but boodoo x arackulele has also been in my mind for a bit but y’all should ignore this post because i dont want to cause another ship outbreak