Its been 5 years since my last reblog on tumblr been 6 years since my last post. Soberingly bittersweet things have changed my boyfriend i used to talk so lovingly about in my long anti depressant 3 am rants is now my fiance & my aesthetic charm will never age. But it hurts me to see how so pro ana deep i was, and now while I am not actively dieting i miss it. How much pain i was in talking about the same people hasn’t not only not change but got worse. And how through all my nihilism there was also a peak of happiness in my messages. Unfortunately that is not gone.
But tumblr
Felt like a secretive comfortable nook that my own thoughts were sent into the void my trust deepest thoughts
the still the only autonomy i have,but lately feeling clouded. Overall I hope everyone else is doing okay. 🦋
