Don't allow anyone to make you feel stupid because you are trying to improve. There is nothing wrong with trying to read a book about self help. Trying a new bedtime routine. Learning how to build new habits is great. Learning how to do your makeup better. It's easy to feel stupid the first time you try to speak positively to yourself or doing some self care for the first time in forever, but actually, those things are a huge win. That's how change happens. You are on the right track. This is awesome, KEEP GOING.

Reminder: It doesn't matter if you're "behind" from others. It's alright if you feel like people have accieved more than you. Life isn't a race of who can do more in their first 30 years. Hell, I see teenagers saying they have failed or that they aren't good enough, when things like that are not in the least important. You have so many years infront of you, no one's chasing you down. Don't beat yourself up.

learning lately that a lot of confidence is about owning up. like "yeah i'm a little addicted to my phone right now" or "yeah i'm not really over this person yet" or "yeah i still get pretty anxious in crowds" just saying anything at all but then following it up w "but i'm trying to get better" and being super nonchalant and unaffected. so powerful. you would literally be undefeatable in the face of even the most judgmental person. no one can judge you for things you already know about yourself and are trying to improve on. the trick is to know yourself from the inside out, to hold yourself accountable, and to actively improve every day. like that is literally the secret to never feeling like you're at the mercy of somebody else's judgment