sam :33

ugh I'm so awko when I meet new people I hateee this I wish I could just connect w people but I feel like an outsider whenever I'm w new people ☹️

I was right this was a bad idea

I love bagels 👅👅👅

ugh I feel like I'm going backwards in everything and it's so evil!!! like these past 2 months with the way I've been thinking I feel like I'm back where I started in therapy. I js hate the way I fit into dynamics sometimes like what hello I hate being the person who freaks out at things and can't enjoy normal things ughghhhhhhhhh I hate it so much

sometimes I feel so evil for hanging out w 2 friend groups at the same time because one of them I've known for so long but the other one I've experienced so much more recently with. like I love them both dearly but it's completely different when you go through all of high school with these people and they go to a different high school like I have to know that there is going to be a shift, I js feel so bad talking about things that ik they don't know about ☹️

I'm feeling regret abt the concert on my bday and idk why. maybe I would rather js stay at home or maybe its because we have to drive since the airport isn't close to the town. I feel bad bc I didn't realize and we had to get a rental car and it was expensive and now I'm like ☹️ I couldve found another date or another town or something ☹️

absolute baddies feel sick and weak all the time no matter what and also are bad at reading signals over text so don't know what the tea is half the time. um it's lowk difficult to hold my phone up for long amounts of time so that's really fun and also I'm getting irritated really fast so I dunno what that's about hopefully it isn't my meds bc um. it probably is but it's so difficult to tell what changes are due to whatuhhh and i might have to go on zombifying ssris if welbutrin doesn't work which I might cry over